I learned a great deal in learning to love with an open hand versus the standard of the world of trying to think one can control clasp love with closed fists. The latter is not unconditional love, it is more selfish. As humans, I do understand how many of us probably have conditions attached to love. When you learn about God, beyond the rules of religion, you will come to a place where you realize he is pure love. He just "is." the beauty of love is that you get a choice to love back. Perhaps that is a stumbling block of many religions where there is a slew of legalism and traditions that keep people so busy that they never get time to be still and commune with what is in the spirit.
Two days ago, I had one of the most precious days with my dad. yesterday he was in slumber, and today, he is laboring and suffering from exiting this planet. I don't know how many times I tell him it is ok to go, yet, for whatever reason in the past few weeks I think my mom's energy and struggle to let go is affecting his spirit to leave. His love is painful to watch, as he will suffer in pain to make mom feel better.
Mom? I love her to death, but this is painful to watch, and I fear with her, the grief is going to be just starting when he passes.
Why is this odd? I guess because she was given a fantastic gift in the time for dad to pass, yet, the human mind and fears that aren't operating out of God's love – no matter how many times you go to church – will probably never see what is happening in the life journey and all the incredible beauty in the process. It is human fears and the tapes of evil at work, never letting go until you face them.
I am a bit frustrated with religion in the past year. I also know the things I have been shown in the desert with a few other folks that are walking out in enlightenment. All you have to do is imagine a 90-year-old man with a small child's heart.
To get to that place, they had to give up all, trust, and follow. I just had a nice chat with the director of this hospice as it is a lovely space, that confirms our own company ideas that you don't have to scale to gigantic size -lest you lose the intimacy of the process.
now I am thinking of the red zones, favelas slums and other places I have been able to walk through on the planet and shake my head that the united states don't' really understand how nice we have it – even with all our problems.
I was going to save this picture from announcing when dad passes, but it is appropriate today. It is a place in Ireland with a horrific history of invasions, conquests, and all. It is the home of some of the most beautiful Celtic crosses on the planet. It also is an amazingly peaceful place where something beautiful spiritually still resides, despite the monastery being closed for hundreds of years.
if you visit, you can skip a lot of the old churches, ruins, and graveyards. just visit Clonmacnoise.
To really get your mind blown, visit nouth, douth, and new grange. Each passageway superseded Christianity by 3-4,000 years. At least there, the guides are honest, "we really don't know what the people were building these for. the best we can do is give an opinion and a guess."