On the drive to see dad at the hospice, I was thinking about how badly I have felt in the last two days of getting sleep and how being a caregiver is really exhausting. I heard it in the voice of a woman that is taking care of my uncle last night. The tired and worn down caregiver reality is something visitors don't have to deal with. "why are you so tired? are you ok?"
With sleep deprivation, I have to go find my research on that. I remember with fasting, that was 7 days. It was 28 days I was alone in isolation before I had to get out and see another human. I want to say 5 days was my sleep deprivation, but when I really think about it, I think it was 3., and that was probably pushing it.
There is a resurgence of sleep research with the new use of data analysis and the fantastic sensitivity of cheap, inexpensive consumer devices. What used to cost a fortune for lab equipment has gone the way of sequencing a genome with regards to cost and time. The world of complexity and complexity theory really is fascinating to me in that you realize just how amazing everything is within the relationship to everything else. If you need proof, just read all the disclaimers that you have with any medicine advertised on TV.
So sleep, exercise, meditation, and work in the spirit have all become more of a habit in my life, even though many days the progress is nothing I can see or witness. It is daily small gains. I used to say it took three months for an idea to become a habit. Now I am reading lots of research where it is 66 days. Either way. That is about 62 days more than many give before they stop trying. I don't mean to be down on the united states, but when guitar hero game came out and the ease of digital audio recording, I saw an entire trend where "fun" meant you could think you had a talent by playing a game – yet- no one could actually play.
Driving in, I started applying the woo woo rooms to end care death, as there will be a giant market in the united states. The sleep room we have already, and the one-room I would love to try the most is the ICU or intensive care surroundings to see if drugs could be reduced and the patient healing increased?
Mind you. You do not need any of all this fancy technology or equipment. You don't need a sensory deprivation tank, nor do you need some self-help book or a guru. Although a healer that has actually healed themselves is precisely what everyone needs. The problem is that not too many folks have healed themselves or reached that level. Call it a massive shortage of teachers that are not out to tell us what to do, yet they didn't do it themselves via experience. If you go into any bookstore, there are a lot of experts – all willing to take your money for the advice – but the process of actualizing the words is usually sorely lacking. tis easy to think about it, much more difficult to actually do and participate.
I tell people all the time, "you want to change yourself? First, you have to see yourself…go out in the middle of nowhere and sit until you are really still."
"How long is that?"
"I don't know…a day, week, a month? to learn to still yourself and come in contact with that which is greater is the greatest gift you can give yourself."
I wish I had a dollar for every time I heart, 'I am too busy! That sounds too hard! that sounds boring!"
heck, that would be enough to prototype all the woo woo variations!
I have to sit and pray today about a young man and some barns, our visions, and prototype spaces. It is very odd, yet, I have to now sketch out some of the products from sweet Mary's rocket werks and get them into the market to help people. A common thread coming through is that we make things that help people in a world that is filled with greed and folks looking for the quick dollar to consume more stuff.
I am sitting here in the hospice space, it is an old church, and I look at the decent design, and I just have a solution for what I could do with one with a few modifications and twists….I am actually laughing, who knew the answer could be so simple for agrowspace. Duh!
Off to work I go, dad is sleeping like a lamb. I have coffee, a sketchbook, and time in the stillness to actually do something I haven't been able to do in 30 days…deep thought work.