A few weeks ago, someone asked me about death. They had a sudden loss of someone in their life, and I said, "I really don't know which is better? Slow or fast? they are a different type of loss."
It means the sudden unexpected death is more of a shock to the system, "poof! They are gone from this planet." and you always have a strange sense of never getting a full goodbye. The long drawn out cancer and other deaths from the disease have you, in essence, happy that the person has passed on, ideally to pure love in heaven and you are so glad the suffering is no more on this earth. You do have time to brace yourself for the inevitable, but you never get used to the reality of losing someone you love.
It is interesting to hear EMT's, doctors and nurses talk about death. there must be some sort of a wall or a boundary they don't' cross with a complete stranger, yet, how many people do I know in the business that have uttered, "it is different when it is someone you know…you are never prepared for that."
Today, I am taking a few gulps of air, as dad Is now in the hospital to get some help that just can't be given here. I don't know how many days he will be gone, yet, I am amazed by how the reality of a breath of time for myself is affecting my heart and soul.
I just wrote to the priest to ask about clearing the confusion for deacon pet and do they need people to read psalms over the body. Usually, it is done on good Friday, and I have never done it for an actual human body, but I think deacon pet would enjoy that. It all has me wonder what is really after here. I was thinking about how little of the light spectrum and auditory spectrum we see and hear as humans versus what is out there. I think we see 1% of the spectrum.
Dad? I have to confess it is hard to see the superman you knew as a kid regressing back to more of a childlike heart and soul. There is exquisite beauty in it, but I would love to take away his slow suffering.
I guess it is all up to the big man upstairs. It is in his time, not my dad's or mine. For now, the drugs are helping him, and he is getting to work out the old age meeting the coming reality for all of us. What did ben franklin say there was guaranteed in life?
I still don't know or have an answer to the quick or long death question. While they both give the same result, the experience is very different for both. You learn a great deal f – perhaps from the reality of both. What is bothering me about the current social climate in the USA – we are medicating any pain from reality via the consumption of stuff.
Today's brainstorm was about taking all the various pieces of controlled spaces and putting them into a mobile and minimalistic space to maximize health in people. Interesting indeed.