I couldn't believe that I finally got to a place of meditation in a noisy gym. It might be I was simply exhausted from the day's work and exercise? Or despite not being able to attend the classes, I knew enough to keep trying to do the work and trying. When you combine that with what the monks taught me about not getting attached or playing with thoughts that will bombard your quest for silence – it is improving.
The unique benefit and/or problem with really going inside yourself is you see how much of the world is an external or "make-up" mode.
What is that? Simply put it is how we all cover up and/or put things and stuff on to enhance or present ourselves to the world. As a male, I tend to notice this more in women. There is the hair color, make-up, augmented and enhanced plastic surgery, the baubles, and jewels where a great deal of time is spent "looking" a certain way for the external world to see.
The more I go inward, the more I find I care less and less about the things of the world, and there is a sort of simplicity to life? This could be age talking, but something is lovely about a simple life devoid of the "stuff" of the world. All of the accouterments of "stuff" are fun, cool, interesting, and more emotional based, but they will never fill you.
I guess after wandering the planet and doing shows all over, I finally understand what one monk asked me a few years ago. "why not stay in one spot?"
When he said that, I didn't really understand what he meant or was saying. Today, I do.
It merely means wherever you are on this planet, there is a lot you can do right there. Once you get out of your pride and ego, it is really amazing to sit in one spot.
While I love how the internet opened up the world for everyone with the ability to converse and talk/see each other for very little money – I also see the noise of the media blaring away with each group directly talking over each other – few listening – even fewer probably caring.
It never ceases to amaze me how at different ages and times in your life, you value, and ideals change with what is essential and meaningful.
I can see the west is forgetting to look inside. Our noise and arrogance no longer sit well inside my heart. The cool thing is I get the choice as to whether I allow it to distract me, or to just let it all "be."
My comments are not to judge anyone, instead, ask people if they ever take the time to ask, "why?" they are doing all the things they are doing? Is it to make the best person you can? Or simply follow along because everyone else is doing it?