I was just chastised for starting to take meditation courses. The chastiser is someone so wrapped up in their own stuff that they have reached a point of the misery of sorts inside their heart and soul. Perhaps hearing of someone saying, “yeah, something was off balance inside my heart and soul…so I went out to seek some solutions with silence and yoga (not just the poses) had them think, “why are you doing that? why not stay in your public space and/or misery?”
It is the confusion between western and eastern philosophies and living life. I fear most of us are so wrapped up in the stuff and obligations of life that to the step of the treadmill or Pavlov’s gerbil mill of dopamine, it seems insane. It was like an older lady in the garden center today lamenting the loss of her lifelong friend when I was looking for mint seeds so some family can enjoy summer libations. “no ma’am, I hardly drink libations, but I find the process of making them so fascinating. just like growing the condiments and herbs/spices year round is fun to me.”
You can also apply this to prayer, meditation, and fitness. Every executive I know that was good at what they did, making time for themselves to re-energize and gain more time and health in what was usually a high-pressure performance packed a day. The journey for creativity and inner peace has had me test so many gizmos, tanks, pods, rooms, and electrical/light/sound/smell whatchamacallits that I realize what one needs is not what the market of consumerism really wants.
You have to spend and make some time for yourself. In doing that, you will be able to give so much more of yourself.
When I look out at the American public, sometimes I wonder, “god forbid a significant war should break out. It would take the country 6 months to lose all the weight and lousy fitness/lifestyles we have gotten ourselves into. Please don’t think this is me preaching, I am fully aware and have lived and experienced what seems like fun in the short term, yet, it kills your heart and soul in the long term.
right now I am wondering, “why on earth am I spending time trying to learn German?” it is one of those thoughts that have me think, “well, if I can get a handle on this…maybe learning a language I will use more will be easier?” time will tell
What I am struggling with is the idea that you can balance the best of the west and the east into a life. It is like living and working in the same spot. You can maximize the use of time and learn something while others might be sitting in traffic listening to a barrage of advertisements, and/or a playlist that some person in corporate decided to play at all the stations owned by behemoth media across the country at the same time.
In business today, market cap and scale are the hip buzzwords of coolness. 30 years ago, I would merely be playing right along with the rest. But today, there is nothing wrong with making something great that helps a few people. If also think a part of it is age, and if you have had your partners die on you, watched friends and foes perish, have a few folks get blown to smithereens and one plowed into the twin towers. These events rock your core with “why?” and the reality of grief and what it is to be human.
Then one day, you let go of all the “stuff” that you were taught is so important and you trust a few simple words from the creator of the universe in learning not to worry, and to simply trust and follow. These are characteristics that befuddle much of the west where we want to think we control our own fate and destiny. It is a great concept, but life can change in a Nanosecond and wipe everything you knew of the table of life.
so the external journey, somehow mystically starts to become an internal one (at least for me) and the more you struggle to grow, the more you realize how broken everyone is, and yet, you grow in compassion and love for even your enemy.
now if only I could really master the balance of east and west. the idea of going in and out of silence and pubix, the expansion and contraction of dealing with lovers and bliss as well as some unhappy folks behaving like a**holes, and not allowing either to attach to you at the moment.
this would be an excellent place to be.
Anyhow…now I am off to see a man about controlled environments. I am adding another thing for humans in one design…go figure…the internal side needs nothing but time and quiet. What an interesting dichotomy.
if anyone tries to control your attempt to improve yourself, you might want to look at the value of that person in your life. it doesnt’ mean you don’t love them, but the west seems to be more bent of finding somethign that fits the weaknesses of oneself instead of trying to heal and fix what is broken in oneself.
didn’t mean to get philosophical..but i am dealing wiht two nice people acting like a**holes today. it isn’t even lunch!