The past few months I have been out of kilter. up until this morning where I to a meditation class, I didn't' realize how out of balance the mind, body, and soul have been. Two of the three have been doing really well in physical and prayer life.
What was lacking is the balance in the listening and stillness side of life.
It is so easy to lose this in the western world where the idea of consumerism and capitalism rely on external success. The concept of healthy internal life appears to be coved up with actual make-up, cosmetic surgery, medications, and some idea that you are to look perfect on the outside. IT seems like if you try to make time for the one thing you can control in life, "yourself." it is somehow seen as a waste of time or too difficult. How many times have you heard, "I am so busy I don't have time! It's just the way I am" to discussing the idea of stopping the bad habits of life and bringing change for the better into another.
There are a lot of rotting people inside with the west these days. I am not sure if the western media driven society paints some highly manipulated and edited image of unattainable human success? Or people find it easier to simply go and buy external things and think treating the symptoms of unhappiness will somehow cure it?
Yeah, I make time each day to do a seemingly dull and un-fun way of life. The more I learn and grow, the more I realize just how little I know. But in the time I have left on this planet, I do know I can't go back to the old western image of success in the world. it tends to destroy your heart and soul as a human (at least in my case it did)
A lot of the things with exercise, diet, emotions, prayer, the meditation you can really explain to others. It is experiential in growth and understanding. It is easy to read about and talk about anything – you learn very quickly that actually doing the task, and doing it well – usually requires work, reputation, and years of practice.
In the past 6 months, it is as if I forgot how to meditate. Maybe it is because I forgot that prayer is having a conversation with God, and meditation is being still and listening. It is a bit of a dichotomy in a world that wants to think they are hearing from God all the time. In the past, I used to, but after the monks got a hold of me and I started to understand delusion better – well, let's say, there is a lot of folks walking around that probably are talking to themselves and/or something that is not a god – aka pure love.
So I was getting beaten up and allowing others "stuff" to affect my heart and soul the past few months. It was like going to a gym and exercising and doing the work and seeing no results. Then I realized I could feel myself in my head more and not so much in the heart. So today, I found a group that was teaching meditation and not just yoga poses.
When I walked out of the class, I realized how much I neglected to be still. Perhaps that is why I have enjoyed nature and the frequency and sounds it gives with the complexity of its non-man-made designs. When I come back into the man-made world, the amount of noise is astounding. It is no wonder people are constantly stressed and distracted.
What does this all have to do with health? Simple. There is no magic pill one can take as a human to cheat life. There are many shortcuts and ways to medicate, yet, for the heart and soul, it is taking the time to pray (talk) to god, and be still (listen.) I don't have a formula for how it works, I just know it does if you take the time each day, just like moving the body with exercise, or feeding it by eating. It is more of an active choice. In meditation, you "do nothing" for it to work, and work towards a state of dispassion where you realize all the noise and chaos of the planet is probably never going to go away. You will have to deal with humans all at very different places and spaces in their lives…it can get really messy and complicated.
the choice you get to make is what are you doing in how you act/react to another, and what will you do to help yourself heal and grow in a world that probably will accelerate with noise, data, and information?
I realized how far out of balance I was when being taught some new breathing exercises and with a guided meditation. I forgot how much easier it makes life with balance. You know life is probably not going to be comfortable with the trials and tribulation it brings, but you get the space and an excellent place to not react, but make healthy decisions.
The choice is you get to do the work, show up, and allow something far wiser to help you on the journey. Or, you can hold onto your fears and insecurities and blame the rest of the world for what it did, while never having to look at yourself.
Yes, just like prayer, the meditation was like drinking a giant gulp of fresh air, or a cold glass of water on a hot day. Upon walking out the doors, all the stuff of others' lives, their fears, and crap that they want to put on you are still there, but you realize you don't need to participate in their crap, you just are there to listen, watch, and observe. It doesn't' define you.
At least this morning, the design of the woo-woo room became even more apparent. Now I have to go mock up some modifications. Have a good day.