The past few months have had me question why try to help people? While I already know the answer, you will come upon times in your life where events have you seem to matter the meaning of life and just what the purpose is while walking on a seemingly mucky path in the world. Perhaps the first step is to take the time to look at yourself and realize that each of us is but a speck of sand in the grandness of creation. I think once you get a glimpse of that idea, your life will change in a direction that probably isn’t following the mass of the herd.
The Buddhists say that there are two journeys in life, the first is one of solitude and healing oneself, the second is when a phase of enlightenment exists, and you look at the reality of the suffering in the world and are ok with. The Christian monks I know in the desert tell me, “a healer first has to heal himself before he can help another.”
Perhaps in that journey, you really come to the meaning of forgiving another, as you realize there is a force in the cosmos that simply loves and isn’t like humans who believe in an eye for an eye – but instead – really unconditional love. Forgiving…understanding, and kind.
When you get a glimpse of that, you do look at many events in the world with people, and you realize we are all a bit flawed. The sadness or suffering comes from understanding that there is something better and many of us hold onto our old selves.
The joy can and does come in the heart the more you let of yourself and try to help others. The reality is life will seem a bit alien and foreign if you don’t sign up for the all you can eat consumerism buffet.
What is odd in the past few months, is there has been a strengthening in my faith, yet the cost has me look at humans, as just that – imperfect flawed and when you have flawed leaders leading the flock – it isn’t challenging to question the legalism, rules, and traditions of man.
The hard part is going past them to a place where joy comes into your heart, no matter what suffering you might be experiencing from the behaviors of any other human.
Perhaps one day I might get a taste of walking like that in this world. I can’t go back and change my past in this world. I can go forward and carry the good forward and keep believing that there can be more than how we limit ourselves in this world.