peace of heart and soul in a broken world.
I went down to the local church at the bottom of the hill today. There was a great talk about peace of heart and soul. It amounts to the grace of God residing inside each of us. in a sense it was what was discussed at dinner where I had scientists, doctors, and creative all talking about what is really there in this universe living as humans and beyond. I can't explain exactly what our how this peace feels when you empty your "self" to allow something else to come in. Perhaps that is why they call it grace, or a gift from God.
Later today, I will be up high in the air to help my friend update their space where people will come in and be touched or supported in their future. In a sense, it is like taking the darkness of old and updating it to light. When I got up and walked to the door to the church, I saw the space in the morning light, the area looks like one wants. It is alive.
Later today the sun will move around, and one more decision gets made about painting over wood. It is something I don't' care to do, yet, with a dated design, the same space can be updated to resemble more of a giant window into the outdoors to observe the trees, animals, another critter that is abundant. I forgot yesterday I stopped in the middle of the road where a gaggle of turkeys just stood there, oblivious to me. Maybe I found a flock of blind turkeys? Perhaps this enclave of society has domesticated them to a place where they have no fears?
Another digression. I am laughing at myself, It is easy to get lost here, so I found this bagel shop created from polish immigrants that are staffed by happy Hispanics, and in a few days, the young man knows I enjoy food and is making me unique dishes. In a sense, if life slowed down a bit, we could have a society like this.
Instead, the moment the church was over, it resembled horses out of the starting gate at a race. I am amazed by the amount of noise all around with the urban environment, and we all rush to pack as much activity into the time as possible. What I am seeing is a lot of tired and stressed out people wondering why they don't have peace?
An old monk taught me to have that, you have to give up your "stuff" and make room to be filled inside, not externally. There is no shortage of obvious things one can fill your time and life with. It makes you so busy that you never have time to notice anything going on inside yourself.
Some country act is singing away on the stereo here. It reminds me of that time trying to build that immersive "audience implosion" show when 9-11 hit. I have no clue about country music, and here it is 18 years later, and the audio technology is just getting to the level we needed.
Speaking of digressions, how was that one. I am smiling at Alex made me a French toast bagel with butter, sugar, and syrup for my dessert and energy I need today. I look around the size of people in the USA, and the reason we are getting so significant is not so much we want to, but rather the habits of daily life have us on a path. It mystifies me why people have no problem going to a restaurant, but few want to take the time to learn to cook like one and eat healthy food?
The inner peace I started writing about is an elusive entity. It is a bit like reading this blog post. The fantastic transition from head to heart is possible, but I haven't met too many people that are walking in that grace all the time. I think you have to give up all your "stuff" to receive this gift. The "stuff' I am talking about seems to be in direct conflict with the ways of American society.
It sounds pretty insane to give up your pride, envy, jealousy, lust, the pursuit of pleasures for yourself – to help others. That sounds like crazy talk. The funny part I just had to learn about with the leaders of our churches is that they preach, but guess what, most are just as flawed and messed up as the rest of us.
wouldn't it be easier to simply call a church a hospital or fitness center for the soul?
I wonder if anyone would attend? or would it be the answer to the question in personality tests, "do you think you are above average?" I think it is a fallacy of illusory superiority. I think 94 percent of college professors believe they are above average in teaching skills. 70 of people might feel they are above average.
no pride issue, huh?
The more I push into a god, the more I realize how I am pretty much nothing in this cosmos, and the creator of it all is so vast that it can love even my little speck of life. People were shocked when I mentioned most of the monks I know come to a place where they feel they are just a piece of dirt in time.
These same people are the closest to walking in gods love that I have ever seen on this planet. They also shun cameras, mirrors, attention, and fame.
Go figure. I guess that is wisdom starting? The more you learn, the more you realize how little you know, and instead of beating up someone for their flaws, you fight and pray that they would get peace in their souls. It won't come from another human or external. It comes from within. Such an amazing mystery.