About this time in each year lent, you hit a doldrums with trying to go deeper inside yourself and change and grow. It is a time of introspection, of which, the deeper you go, you do come closer to the creator of all and at the same time look out at the goofiness of man on the planet and think, “wow, I am so far off the track for love beyond self.” Thankfully I have met a few folks that gave up everything to achieve that state, and each basically thinks they are nothing more than a speck of sand in the cosmos.
This year, lent has just been one massive battle. It is like you get up each day, get into a ring and seem to be pummeled and in the old days I would fight back, yet today there is a different set of eyes I am looking through or trying to achieve.
In the past 10 minutes, I talked about surveillance in China vs. the united states. Translated a document from a German man because I was trying to read and learn the language better, and I thought I was reading something wrong. An example that the long haul OTR trucker from Walmart makes what a German doctor makes. Turns out if you want to be a road warrior, you can make 90k with Walmart. I would advise getting on a live entertainment show and making more for the same effort and beating your body will take.
If you skim the crème off the top of all data and look at the world with numbers, it Is straightforward to paint a picture of a wonderful world. there is a conference in Geneva Switzerland about changing the world I would love to attend – yet – I think lent has told me, “just shut up and build the ideas in front of you and help a few folks out to make their dreams come true.”
What it entails is a mobile maker space of sorts. I still have some bugs to work out with staff and Andrew – but it is coming along. It is like the UN expounding cities on the sea for the future. I still chuckle in that is how Agrowspace when from the simple boxes growing food in the middle of orphanages and conflict zones to full-fledged off the grid places and spaces for people to live.
in its current form, it will be spaces for people to go from the noise of humanity in the city and place to still and quiet themselves.
It is like going to church today. I know why I am going, but it is a bit lifeless and seemingly traditions, rules, and regulations versus healing the should and body to learn a different way of love. Maybe I am just nuts? Or there is a reason the monks of the various religions of the world tend to get out of the world to focus?
I am thinking of my old friend Harold. He was a self-made shipping guy that had a similar personality as me. at dinner, he said, “mark, you are going to be like me…you will make it later in life.”
I am excited about what the future holds, yet, I also realize it is going to be a bit lonely until people see and can touch/smell/feel a guaranteed reality. it appears a lot of the planet wants a world with no risk, the idea they can control life, and inside the USA at least, instant gratification and pleasure center where you are always, “happy!”
Joy and happiness are two very different. At least that is what I learned. On path is you can look outward and participate and partake of stuff to make you happy. The other, you let go of your stuff to seek a place of joy with the cosmos. The first way is easier…the second…a daily work in progress.
That's my two free cents…from the mind of a man juggling 5 ideas in his mind today, trying to focus them into manageable chunks.
How is lent going? it simply has been a battle…I will keep fighting and see where it ends up with easter in a few weeks.