A part of aging is waking up one day to realize that it makes more sense to stop trying to tell yourself you are unique and have some skills, intelligence, or talent that is better than others. Then you stop following the trajectory of comparing yourself to others, and you get off of the seeming gerbil mill of performance and come to a place where you realize the real value of life is more about what qualities (talents) you have that connect you best to other people. To help use your abilities to elevate them, not just yourself.
I have no explanation for what transpired the first time I met that old man in the desert, but at that moment, what I thought life was about – changed. It was as if blinders were taken off my heart and soul and I was like, “what the heck was I doing in this world?”
Today – people don’t get that people want to help others genuinely. If you can make someone else dream come true, it has more meaning today that getting some press or accolade of when I was younger. Call it a transition from selfish to selfless? I want to say it is, yet, I still have a long way to go and a lot to get rid of it myself to be where I would like. Perhaps that part of perpetual growth, performance, and education will always stay with me. I hope to not lose the childlike heart and wonderment with so many things as well.
So, when you try to help people in today’s markets, it appears that one is taken like, “why is this person trying to help me? What is the catch? No one ever helped me before!” I had a project like that where a couple simply figured out ways to shoot themselves in the foot and then when you try to help them out of a problem, and they tried to turn the gun and shoot me in the foot. I think I still have some trepidations about it, as these are people that are spiritual guides – yet – inside themselves, they don’t believe that which they are teaching.
Anyone else has problems like that? The preachers have a “do as I say, but not as I do” vibe with them? As I think about that old man in the desert, I was in my 40’s, and it was the first time in Christianity that I saw what the bible was talking about really did exist in humans at a level that I had seen in Sufi and Buddhists monks, but never Christians. It is the look of exuding love and not judging you for all the stuff you had inside your heart and soul. I don’t remember ever seeing this in many churches. I have seen lots of emotional and romantic love on the planet, but when you talk about actual love that is beyond attachment and emotions, that is indeed rare on this planet.
The reason is to get there, either you have to be given a gift, or you have to empty yourself of your stuff and allow space for something greater than yourself to come in.
I do not mean to say I understand religion or am any theologian. I am far from it. Last week I had coffee with “butch,” and he was talking about theology and I said, “dude, I understand the bible because I was the poster boy for sin and one day had a Damascus road experience. However, I think that is the difference. Some people can read a book and do it. Others, have to learn experientially – of which – perhaps there is a different level of understanding or pursuit in seeking that which is unseen and walking in faith?”
However, today – everyone is on a treadmill in the west, particularly in the USA where a few are gobbling up a lot, and the middle class which was a bit on the backbone of the country is shrinking. We are going to have almost a feudal state if this keeps going.
Maybe what I am trying to say is that the idea of a circular or a shared economy will only work if everyone is involved. There might be some strange law of nature wherewith abundance you get more greed, isolation, and selfishness? When we did work in the 3rd world, I found people shared more because there was a lack, and everyone tended to help each other. In rural united states, I have been around farming villages and the small towns would not get along with each other, yet, if someone needed help – even the same folks that disagreed or didn’t get along would help each other.
Seems pretty simple to me, yet, we have created an economy and society where short-term gratification and the idea everyone deserves whatever they want, whenever they want, is a human right. (I am not going to lie, having 24/7 choice is a nice convenience)
Speaking of human rights, I also am astounded how we can send and spend money to faraway lands to help the hungry, sick, and poor. When I walk down a street in the united states, there is a whole lot of folks that for whatever reason are in a place that human right activists will walk right by them on the street.
Don’t feel alarmed. I sometimes do myself. When there are so many – you tend to run out of things to give and seem to develop a hardened shell of sorts. Then you turn on the TV and hear the politicians all fighting for camera time expounding how valuable their crony or nepotism programs that cost billions are doing such great things.
I am not sure what is trying to get out this morning. Perhaps it is that the idea that people helping each other to make their dreams come true is merely abnormal in a world that is bent on grabbing the brass ring for themselves?
It is like a problem I am looking at – someone has a dream – a noble one about not losing what is right and high quality in a world that is going down the tube with earbuds and not having a clue what music and sound pressure levels sounds like. There is enough to pull off the project, yet, each group is going to have to take a little less to make it a reality. I am ok with that, but what I am finding is, and this is why we ended up building our lab and tools – is that people still have that box of the chocolate mentality of which “personal” and “business” shall never meet.
Maybe there is growth for me? That line between selfish and selfless is changing? Alternatively, are all the hits to the head playing football catching up to me? Alternatively, is there something far bigger at work on this planet helping move me along. I know I can only change myself, but I also know today that if I start working on helping others – I will always have more than enough or need.
It is living out that message I typed out years ago with my Indian doctor friend talking to the Sufi doctor with a bucket for “pay what you can” in the back of his office. Somewhere it is in this blog that merely is stuck out in cyberspace, attached to nothing.
Ok, coffee is warm, 3d modeling programs are ready, and so am I - have a great day.