Good Friday (eastern front)
While all the west has had Easter come and go. This year Easter falls a week behind with the eastern churches. Today is Good Friday, last night 12 gospels were read that walks everyone through the last night of Jesus’s life. I have to wonder what I would have done if I lived during that time in history? Today I look at the reality behind the scenes with pride, lust for power, control of people, envy, and greed and wonder, “has man really even evolved?” We really are great tool makers, as if you look at all the contraptions, we have today to obliterate anything different – you can see we haven’t grown all that much to truly love our neighbors.
I wonder if we have become more selfish as people. Or have we simply remained the same through history?
But I will be going off to the monks today. This lent has been one of the worst I remember since trying to go deeper beyond religion and into the spiritual dynamic of it. I guess when you see the behavior of leaders in the church seeming to be nothing more than any other human like ourselves, you can quickly lose focus and track that god is far bigger than any of us, and no one is perfect. Maybe it is when I look at the leadership in the country and see what appears to be a swamp that is turning into a sewage pit that it has an added effect? For anyone politically inclined in the states, I think the entire system has gotten fat and happy, and all the players are gorging on feeding their ego with their ideas and camera time. Behind the scenes is what really has me worried about what is actually happening.
Sorry, I had a digression moment. So, Easter will have all the traditions from various eastern European countries come forth. As an ex-pat and an immigrant, myself, I do understand why and how people carry a bit of their past with them. It is that familiarity you grew up with and were taught as a kid. The irony as a kid, I just wanted to be part of the rest in the united states. Our family had no Russian in it – yet, there was the cold war raging and the different calendars with religion and me asking “why?” and getting terrible answers was hard.
Today, I will go up on top of the mountain. The monks are kind and understand what is broken inside my heart and soul, I pray God realizes I am trying each day. But there is so much more than what we limit ourselves as humans with relationship to our place on the planet and in the cosmos. I am amazed at it all, and even more curious beyond our known three dimensions of what might be going on that we can’t see or comprehend.
Yet, here on earth, people are fighting for more money, stuff, bigger houses, more cars and I am seeing all the entertainment growing at a rate where the idea of spirituality can get swallowed up, just like politicians do in Washington, dc.
So today, I am hopeful, that despite what feels like a lousy lent, a moment of clarity will take form in a few hours. I will go up to be around people that have let everything of the world go, and this will be the first time I see the burial service on Good Friday with the monks. The reality of the human side of me thinks, “wow, how are they letting a miserable sinner like me in their space.” The spiritual front of me that thinks God is pure love remember the talk about coming in faith and believing that which I can’t see with my human senses and dimensions.
Perhaps that is the reality of growth in the spirit? You realize you aren’t all that you think you are, you really are more of a grain of sand in the vast cosmos – and you do know there is something unusual and perfect in control of it all. Maybe that is life. I have a blues guitar friend (she is just starting to get recognition late in life for her talents) that is studying Kabbalah, which seems to be similar from my life – you go from selfish and walk to a path of selfless and/or altruistic living. Today I get to be around some folks that gave up everything. When you look in their eyes, you can see their souls and how they have attained a state of dispassion that allows pure love to flow. They don’t judge. They are on a journey to heal themselves before they ever try to help another.
In the world, it seems you read a book, grab a microphone and are an expert at change and healing.
I found it doesn’t work that way in the long term. I am rambling away…time to take my hands off the keyboard. Have a great day.