Traveling around the planet has been a privilege for me. When I was a young child, I would take my national geographic magazine and head up to the top of a hill that had a field and look toward what I thought was a giant city and wonder, “what is really out there.” Years later, I still have visited 25-30% of the worlds countries and have come to the conclusion that the planet is a bit like a book. Each country is a chapter in it. The more you read it and walk among it for the experiential learning, you have the option to learn about god and the idea of him being pure love.
What is this pure love? I cannot explain it. How do you express something that has created the cosmos, the milky way, and then our solar system and the humans on it? How can you explain the world beyond what we can currently see in the subatomic realm, and then in the mathematical realm where we have proven 8 dimensions, are working on three more, yet we live in three basic dimensions in our human form? What would 8 or 11 dimensions look like?
The past month has been a rough one for me with the spiritual pursuit. It is a struggle to go from living in the world and all that it teaches is success and learning from an old man in a dessert that what is in the holy books really exists. The problem with finding that, is you tend to have to walk away from what the world says is great and look inside yourself, get real with yourself and realize, “what? I am not the center of the universe?”
Perhaps at that moment, a force you never knew existed will come upon you and you get a sense that this amazing power of love, simply loves. Beyond all of man’s various ways, religions, and denominations to try to teach about god, I don’t hear the message of love very often. Instead I hear more about a set of rules, traditions, legalism and check list to keep people very busy following, never asking “why?” or trying to understand.
I guess it is like a little kid. They say the way to god is with a childlike heart. My personal journey can attest that I forget how many nights of prayer me were simply asking lots of seemingly simple questions to god. “how come?” “why did you?”
“what did you really mean when Jesus said?” the list was long, and I guess very personal to each person who seeks god.
The greatest lesson you learn in that process is how your “image” for the world doesn’t line up with what is inside your heart and soul. You also find that a force realized you are simply a tiny human in the grand cosmos of creation and reached down to help you on your journey through this life. Perhaps this is what I see less of today. The world has given us a plethora of cool things and I will confess that man is a good tool maker with coming up with more ways to numb and dumb down people to never having to spend any time alone with themselves or with god.
Often times I wonder, “does god get lonely?” then I remember if something is pure love, and all it can do is love, how can it get lonely? That last sentence probably will make little sense to anyone that has not waited upon god to show up. There is a lot of good that comes from trying to get rid of your flesh with prayer and fasting. I never found the idea of giving up snickers bars for lent much of fasting, but it was a start?
The struggle I have today is with myself, what I see coming down the technology pipeline on the planet, and simply looking back at history and wondering why humans don’t see any need to really change themselves? I asked a question to a military veteran the other day who was expounding the value of being a soldier. “do you think man was created to love or just survive?”
The question had the man stop, and the rest of my construct was looking back in just 5-10,000 years of history – man doesn’t have all that great of a track record with peace and love to his fellow man. I look at the industrialized military complex at a global level and it makes a few people so much money that It would send markets into chaos if humanity decided to become peaceful.
All I can do, is wrought to change myself. It seems a bit lonely the past few months and there are some issues I am working on within myself that I am struggling with other people. Thankfully I know to trust and ask for help from above. I used to figure out everything by myself, but there was a moment in life when I realized, even though god gave me some decent smarts, I wasn’t all that smart.
For this day, I wish you well and a day of peace, joy and love. The journey called life is indeed strange. I have to confess you learn the most traveling and living and working amid other people, colors, and cultures. Perhaps that is what bothers me the most with us foreign policy? The smart folks making policy probably have spent little time in the land they are trying to change policy with?
I don’t claim to have the answers of what god really is. When I think of the concept of an entity that is pure love, I can’t really imagine being near something that good. In our normal bodies, we tend to many times confuse romantic or selfish love for that which is actually pure and selfless. It is for this reason, after getting a tiny taste that it exists that I keep pushing forward to learning more and working to change myself to be a different person than I was yesterday. This time I ask for help and guidance. What I learned is it probably is more difficult of a journey today than it was simply following the world.
My path was one day having an encounter with Jesus. That lead me to a day where I realized god was indeed pure love. How did I find that? By learning to forgive someone, instead of destroying them.