I woke up to a bunch of ice today. it is a bit strange that for the past month I have enjoyed warm weather and watched the flowers and plants all blooming, only to come back to the cold and last night a winter ick fell where a layer of ice formed. “Where did spring go? when will spring ever hit this part of the country?” even the deer are a bit confused, although I think their herding is a result of a harsh winter. at least the snowfall levels weren’t so bad that you had to watch them starve to death in a field. I remember seeing this as a young kid and while I do understand mother nature, I think good conservation techniques for the forest and herds are necessary. I have never seen so many, or so large of herds around seeking food as this year.
so my church was very private and I will simply spend the morning listening to sermons and talking away and trying to have a conversation with the creator. that is what prayer is, having a conversation with God. people have made fun of me that I usually start with prayers written on paper, yet, they don’t seem to realize it is just a pathway to get to a point where I am blabbing away or simply listening in silence. I have added more mediation into the fray in the last week but I think it will take more proactive to get into a space that I know exists. right now it is still that odd uneasiness as I have to let go of some things inside to go to that place of peace inside.
wouldn’t it be nice if everyone walked in that place of peace? imagine how different the planet might look and be. people just getting along with each other. no one needing to be armed, wrapping themselves in physical security weapons because of their fears and insecurities. while I wager there would be conflicts of sorts in time, I think people might quickly pull back and realize the stupidity in anger, bitterness, resentment, and unforgiveness.
as I typed that last sentence and thought about the current state of the world, I was surprised the BBC (my main news station) ran a story about minority owning guns. when I listened to the founder of the LGBTQ gun club, I was saddened, as the response for “why?” was the exact same reason my southern friends are armed. it is insecurity and lack of trust in the systems. there is no way you can really tell when someone will do any insane act, although, it seems inside the USA there are more and more of them happening with uncivil behavior between people.
on the street I hear, “he disrespected me!” as the three words that seem to cause more stupidity and death on the streets with youth. There are several countries I have been to that have the similar macho attitude and yet, I have also gone to others, like Switzerland where raising ones voice can be considered a crime. this is the large gap of cultural differences that I see and want to understand more. the large scale augmanity project is designed for that. speaking of which, I have to renew that org domain name soon. one day the technology and the global infrastructure will be there to launch it all.
until then, I am working on changing myself, and in the world it probably looks insane. “what do you mean? stop? look inward? are you nuts? we have too many obligations to keep us insanely busy!”
It really is about change. there a few fundamental things one should do to create more time give oneself a better heart and soul. in the west, we tend to think working on our weaknesses is a waste of time. we have created a path where you can go a long way, all the way to the top with your strengths and cover up and never have to see that which will balance you into a better human.
a monk once wrote to someone that asked, “is it better to have more or less of virtues?” “it is better to have a little of each, than to have a lot of one, for in the latter, pride will come along and cause a great deal of problems.”
just me rambling on an ice filled day as I wait for the temperature to rise. lots of good ideas, simply pushing forward to help someone in the world.