I am not sure if I am getting bigger and stronger? Or if fall is upon me and I need to put on weight? Or the reality of 12 weeks as a caregiver has me somehow mysteriously not looking fat, but where did I put on the other 20 lbs.? it was 6 months ago, and I was on my way to a goal to get to the weight I played linebacker at. Maybe today, linebackers are just a lot larger? At least that is what I will tell myself to rationalize that all the food people brought over in the act of kindness, a lot of it sugar, somehow went into my body as stress eating?
what is different this time is that the weight has been mis apportioned, and I have to simply eat less and continue on my path to rebuild and lose the extra weight.
people ask me why? "I simply feel better."
There is a reason in a nutshell. I simply feel better. My joints move, I have energy, and my heart and lungs appreciate the effort. I would love to say I exercise to look good, but most linebacker bodies are more like a frog with massive muscles. There isn't anything pretty about them.
What is knocking me for a loop is how tired I was, and am from dad's journey. I finally have put together a few nights of sleep, and I have to confess, it is helping to kickstart the mind into thinking and work-in how it should. With the weather so icky here – cold – damp – rainy, one could easily succumb to depression. The "(insert city name) depression gray" color chit is what I came up to describe what the town is like. Usually, it is in the top 5 for the most depressing and least amount of sunlight each year on the national scale.
But what about exercise and diet. In the past 12 weeks, a few things have gotten a bit out of kilter. I have to reel them in and get back on track. It is that simple. So here is to get on that page.
now I go look at some space and take a coffee and wonder, "what can we do with this?
Go figure, I was astounded with getting on the scale yesterday and seeing the weight. My confusion is that my pants fit fine. Therefore, did I somehow add a bunch of muscle? Or did the body move to new places? I don't really know. I even kept my speed the same. Perhaps the scale is broken?