…At least I made an aged punk rocker and his father in Ireland very happy for having the foresight to snap some images of the two of them. The back story is they had been going to this place for 20 years together, a father and son and really never captured any moments or memories before I walked up and said, "the two of you are interesting, would you mind if I took candid portraits of you?" never be afraid to ask. Most of the time the backstory you get is truly amazing and inspiring.
I am not sure what to make of my life these past few weeks. All I know is that today I made the mistake of opening up my emails before I prayed, meditated, brainstormed, and did my normal routine. I was met with the stuff of life, all of it neither good nor bad, none of it perfect, and my responses had me wonder, “why didn’t I wait to do this and do the most important things first?” This is a perpetual battle of sorts to keep on track with the bigger image of what is really important with priorities than to get sucked into the seemingly endless world of obligations that the world wants to tell us is important.
So yeah, I wrote a few email responses and was a bit snarky. I went back and even apologized. “I guess I should pray before sending emails.” I guess life is like that as each of us has a very unique perspective of what is happening around us. When you put two or more people in the same room – usually you get a full and varied list of concerns and ideas about what something is or should be. Perhaps that is what I miss most on the road, there was a clearly defined focal point (a show) that everyone had to work to get ready with a limited timeline (you don’t have the option to cancel or delay a show.) The trick is you had to make it look as perfect to the audience as possible, even if it was a disaster behind the proscenium. Then pack it all up and move it in a day and repeat..i have done thousands of shows...one day, I might be part of a perfect one.
It is the speed of that work that I really enjoyed. There was no 9-5, there wasn’t a lot of time with people just expressing ideas and thoughts. It was more about “we have problems and no real rule book with how to fix it” so a bunch of people get together and figure it out. Such is the world with international operations where every country and city has different rules than the ones you grew up with. It is a great learning experience. The problem is if you stay in one spot, all that experience is usually muted or diminished because of the local viewpoint of seeing or doing something.
I guess what upsets me the most is that we had a schedule and planned to help someone. Events that occurred to them from another group, well, let’s just say they were about to be catastrophic in nature for them. So we stepped in to help, as I didn't see anyone else except a guy from Canada offer to come to help out. we did the work, and then the people that were not there or offered to do anything became critics that bent the ear of my friend, despite 5 other people saying, “this will be fine.”
In these cases, you just shake your head. I realize there are many things I do not know, and I am and will learn about how to do each one. Yet, if there is something I do not feel competent or qualified to do – I will say, “get someone else.” when I do know about something and have done it many times, it means I am always looking to learn new ways and things to improve. Experience from many trials, errors, and even playful attempts at “what if” all accumulate in mind to think it, and the hands' ability to make it.
I think people just want the traditional way they know of life. I look at my aging parents. They don’t want to see any changes. They prefer a predictable and gentile life. Me? I would love to keep learning till the day I did.
it was funny last week, my friend made a comment about “you don't’ seem to be happy doing this work?”
I replied, “I love the design end, I love the moment when all the parts start to come together, and I wish the time to get the perfect final product that looks so nice were longer, but few realize how much prep, infrastructure, or behind the scenes simple work goes into making something that looks so simple and beautiful. Do I like that part of humping things upstairs or working my body to the bone? Not really. But it is a necessary step if you don’t have the time or money to hire something out. anything is possible with enough time and/or money.”
Then again, there is a lot of ways to look at something. I have a favorite graph we made that shows how three views can give three different perspectives. It’s how I try to look at any problem – from a myriad of perspectives. It is by doing this that you come up with the best and most efficient way to combine form and function.
This morning’s ramble…just merde. But it is my 10 additional minutes I should have done before opening my emails. Have a great day. Stop back tomorrow. I will remember to write before I let the obligations of life cloud up the morning time that usually sets the tone of the day.