Doesn’t matter which report the weatherman gets right. I think we are going to get blasted with a storm tomorrow. The neighbor's duck was standing next to the garage seeming to say, “let me in so I can hide for a day or two, something is coming!” animals are funny like that. If you watch them, they can tell you a great deal. I remember a catfish of some sort in Japan that was there to warn people of coming earthquakes.
I have no problem working 7 days a week on my stuff. That is because I found my passion in life and the entire world of controlled environment agriculture and intelligent human spaces has endless possibilities of dreams, many which will not be realized in my lifetime with technologies limitations – but you keep trying.
Working for a wage or helping another person, is merely draining in that a lot of what we do for work, is a bit like going into a grocery store and seeing 22 aisles full of products created via competition and the need for endless choices to a consumer. All you really need to live, be healthy and have a decent life can be found in two of the aisles. We create a lot of the headache and frustration in our lives because of human greed and the desire to have more.
trust me, I get it all too well, running on the gerbil mill of “more stuff” and I am thankful for that old man in the desert that showed me with the look in his eye, “yes it is nice, there is nothing wrong with it, but you can’t take it with you.”
A blizzard is approaching, and I am going to hunker down in front of design computers and take all the stuff in my head and block it out, so my friend understands just how much goes into making something. And then either Saturday afternoon or Sunday morning I am going up into that spot in the woods to sit in the forest. I have a funny feeling this will be my church this week, as if we get half the amount that is predicted, it still is enough snow to warrant staying put.
That is the beauty of a forest in a snowstorm, It is so still and quiet. Absolutely beautiful. I will probably take the camera and just do images for my pleasure so that I can remember when life gets really goofy, there are nature and the peace of God in the world – all the time. It is just very easy to forget this if you get sucked into the gerbil mill of stuff and trying to impress others all the time.
I have few regrets in life, but why it took me so long to realize the life I was leading, while full of nice emotional and physical stuff and things, just didn’t make me happy. To do that, you merely have to be still and look inside yourself. once you get past that first layer of realizing you are not all that perfect, then you come to grips with the understanding your actual “self.”
then you look back at life in wonderment and wonder, “why did I take so long?” and “why doesn't’ a lot of the world seem to get it?
the odd part, is it is a daily, hourly, minute by minute journey where you have to keep seeming to let go of “stuff” to keep walking in that space that is similar to what you can experience sitting by yourself in the middle of a snowstorm in the silence of nature.
Now I am planning a nice menu for the storm. Linguini and clam sauce with some nice crusty bread, some pizzas, and perhaps I will make a traditional Irish breakfast…hmm…