I saw the black wire hanging and asked my friend, “what is this to?”
“that is to the refrigerator”
“you unplugged it?”
I think I got out “no, no, no” a few times before I went upstairs and opened the freezer where a lot of venison from this year was being kept until we made sausage. the big delay has been helping bail a friend out of his building mess he created.
it didn’t stink and the meat was unthawed and I am like, “I don’t know if we can save it?” I could have hung it from a rafter outside and it would all be frozen like a brick for the past month.
what bothers me with some honest mistakes, is that I don't like the idea of going out and killing an animal and having any of it wasted. this was some parts from three deer and I remember each and butchering each and saying a little prayer of thanks that so many people would get some delicious sausage that everyone likes so much.
but here I am. I am ok with mistakes, I am ok with someone being ignorant, I am ok with acts of god or nature doing whatever it wishes. I have a problem with human stupidity. the definition of that is simply when someone wants to keep repeating the same thing and expecting different results.
another definition is when you show someone what needs to be done. they are no longer ignorant. if they keep making the same mistake, I have to call it stupidity.
I left the place, and yes, after the personal, work and other issues of the past few days…I was a wee bit upset and went to a café to get a coffee and a moment to calm down.
the woman at the cash register was struggling and making no sense with anyone’s order. I think it took 14 minutes to get a simple cup of coffee. for whatever reason, you could tell she was new and very flustered. I watched her, and a part of me felt sorry for her, as learning any new thing takes time, and I just smiled and waited.
people say, “oh you never should get angry” yet, I am not a learned monk that is enlightened from the desert. each day I struggle to grow a bit, yet, sometimes in life, you are going to get pissed off. usually it is the result of asking someone so many times, “can you please not do this, or can you please do that?”
we are all guilty of imperfection and yes, we have a choice with how to react. at what point do you look at people and say, “enough is enough…I don’t see any desire to change and grow, do I walk away from it all and leave them hanging to repeat their mistakes again? or do I do like god does with me. he forgave so many dumb mistakes I have made in my life that I do appreciate unconditional love in a world that seems to be a romance comedy with conditional love.
I hope we can save this meat, what pisses me off is going out and wasting food because of human stupidity.
I have a person in my life that gets upset with me, “you think you are so smart!” I reply, “I have mad many mistakes and it isn’t book smarts but experiential learning across a lot of disciplines, in many countries and cultures on the planet. I make lots of mistakes, usually in the lab and brainstorming session, but when I lay out something it usually is right far more than it is wrong. if that bothers you, I am sorry. you can reinvent the wheel or take some advice from someone that learned a lot from doing it already.”
people only listen to advise when you charge them for it. free advise doesn’t seem to hold much value, no matter how valuable the information is.
it really breaks down to unconditional vs conditional love. I am greatful that for whatever reason, the creator of the universe had pity and compassion on me to let me learn there is a lot more than the human condition. it just gets hard trying to rationalize the behavior of humans in a world that is more about stuff than substance.
now I go back, clean up a mess and see about salvaging the meat.