the things you do for family and freinds…
I marvel today at the reality of going back to break down the last major part of tearing up crappy subfloor so that getting back to a rafter, one can then start going forward. I find it amazing the people tend to fill whatever space they occupy – it is like humans are liquid and when you give them more space – they put more stuff in it. usually, over time, it accumulates and then we get covered with a sedimentation of a sort. much like if you pile stuff on top of the stuff you get a bigger pile of stuff f- the same happens if you don’t exercise, pray, work on your stuff each day – it just accumulates into a bigger pile of stuff f- usually created by habits that aren’t very good.
each nail I pull out and each backbreaking pulse with the demotion hammers is not fun. frankly, it sucks for work -yet I know what each step what was a house is going to be a home soon for three little girls and their parents who have struggled a bit in the states during the years.
meanwhile my own home – is really inside my heart. I am ok with wherever It is, as while I have all the agrowspace designs that really came out of me designing a home/lab/workspace to be on one spot of the planet – it appears that humans are simply never going to go do the work that Is required to go deep inside themselves, stop making excuses and strip off their stuff to improve and make a better overall person
while we all learn, think and try to be good – I think it takes some divine help to get rid of a lot of the bigger issues like pride, greed, lust, and the rest of the deadly sins that religion talks about. in some ways, I think men
have built a giant rule book and boxes to check off as a way of quantifying righteousness for all humans…while the actual process of walking it out is a sincere struggle.
but each year, month, day, if we all took a bit of time to get rid of whatever clutter is in us…and don’t allow it to accumulate – then the world could be a better place for all.
truly is odd praying and following in a spiritual path – no matter how right or wrong my discernment it – then simply living in the herd of the world – chasing stuff that really doesn't matter all that much in the grand scheme of life
love does matter. it is easy to love someone that loves back, but learning to love someone that doesn't’ want to love, doesn’t know how, or is so hurt – well – that is like all of us, in some way we are all a bit sick – and we all carry a great potential to love.
it’s all one big mystery to me…but I wake up each day and keep trying, even if I don’t feel like it very much fun…like today probably will be
on the positive side, I don't’ need to go to the gym! the human condition isn’t going to change, but it doesn't mean I can’t keep trying to change.