I am waiting for butch to arrive for a morning coffee. the sun is either hidden behind the thick fog, or the clouds are a bit lower and playing an optical illusion of sorts. I see a line of people at the salvation army down the street. I am not sure exactly why they are there all the time when I visit, but there always seems to be a group hanging out. it reminds me a bit about those who either by choice, or circumstances are simply trying to survive?
there is more and more of this in the united states these days. it is something I never really expected to see in the numbers I have as you cross the country. the major cities seem to be organized with the homeless and the sad part is I can’t tell who is panhandling or busking, who is in trouble, and who is using the act of homelessness for a way to make a living. the one I do understand is the eyes of a junkie who needs a fix, the alcoholic that needs a swig, and someone that is genuinely hungry.
maybe that is what is confusing me. I am seeing less and less of the later, and more and more of folks that seem to be panhandling under the guise of needing help? all I know is the old man in the desert taught, “if someone asks you for something and you have it, give it, even if it is a simple button.”
I don’t know why he used the button analogy yet, however it did make sense in the past, yet today, you see so much want/need on the streets that I don’t have enough for all and I have to wonder, “what does the creator of the universe really want if we are to help each other and love each other…enemies included.”
the last line probably has many read it and think, “what? love? screw that – it is an eye for an eye, justice, punishment!”
I used to think that way, till one day you come inside yourself and realize there is a force on this planet that is love and it shines its light inside you and allows to see the truth of yourself, well, it is a sucky moment where the make-up and illusion comes off and you see that you really are not the center of the universe, super special, or unique in the cosmic sense. you are given the scale of just how huge god and love is, and just how small you really are.
then the really big mindf*ck happens when you realize God loves you no matter how messed up you are inside. it is an amazing miracle to experience.
but then, you change and you live in a world that really doesn’t want to, doesn’t need to, or is too busy or wrapped up into itself to see itself clearly – and that is where many days you sort of feel out of place or kilter on the planet.
what is most fascinating is to walk about the locals and see the cultural elements with Asia, Europe, north and south America, and the rest of the world. on one hand, you realize we are all very similar in what we want, yet the planet is oh so complex in how small differences in the cultural beliefs and traditions influence how things can work out. I still lament that the idea of the internet was to make the planet more democratic and have access to information for all….yet today…it really seems like a big pile of stuff – these blog posts included.
none of us knows what the future will bring, and that is ok. there is only one guarantee for all of us. we just don’t know when that will happen.
so instead of living each day in the moment, why do we think we can plan our future with 100% certainty?
oh yeah, because a tv, radio, magazine, pop up advertisment tries to tell us!
this concludes my 10-minute ramble. brainstorm was fruitful in providing one solution we have been looking at for about the last 2 years. yippee!