yesterday, I started to push for a three day a week quasi-sprint workout mixed in with the other things I am doing with bodyweight exercises mixed in with some actual minor weightlifting. it was about 5 weeks ago when I just said, “these treadmills and such, just are not giving my body what it wants/needs.” so even though I am old enough to be a grandpa, I wondered, can I even sprint anymore?
it has been so much nicer than sitting on a treadmill and not really seeming to get out of it what the data of the machine said it I was doing. i actually feel "alive" again. so that was the question, could I even do this anymore, and I started working in the muscles and joints with the success you would expect after so long? The one thing I immediately noticed was how my body felt extending its range of motion out to the maximum. it was as if my body was saying, “remember me? yeah, remember when you could run like a deer and weigh 245lbs?”
the 100 failures came about when reading a paper on new ideas and pushing one's limits. many people don’t understand when I say, “If I don’t fail 100 times before breakfast, it is a bad morning.” much of the world has a hang-up with “failure” or something not working out. this Is perhaps my biggest cultural issue when I am in Switzerland in that everything is regulated not to fail. this is a good ideal, but I don’t know how you don’t grow by constantly trying new things and pushing yourself. having a system in place is necessary, but how much limits or controls to you place on teh system itself. ultra-hyper-conservative? or "what if we..."
when I mention I fail 100 times, it means I found 100 ways that are ideas that might work – but the reality is most can be discounted as, “probably not the best solution.” why are people afraid to fail? I guess because it hurts. what I am sensing more these days is people don’t want to feel pain, or exert pain to really grow to a higher level. I think the coming convenience of AAI and robot assistants will further reinforce the “pill mentality” I see in medicine. (pssst…the great ideas come from about idea 80-100 in each brainstorm on a problem. linear progressions are usually in the first 20)
speaking of pill mentality, I am reading lots of silicon valley working with biohacking their minds and bodies. I am really not sure this is the best way to make the best human outside of physiology. I blame it on Timothy Leary, the 70’s and burning man. in a sense, I guess this is a precursor to the coming transhumanism world of our future? it is like the military doing work on PSTD and mushrooms or acid for a cure. my first thought is, “when you train someone to go out and kill something, and then they experience it…do you really think a normal and healthy human being will NOT be affected?” when I see the idea of empathogens being pushed, it reminds me of a group in Santa Fe trying to start a church so they could use iowaska – which in some s.american cultures is used for spiritual purposes. It is the same issue I see with PDA’s in sports. I am looking at a lot of American baseball players and I think they have a problem again – of which – do I blame a guy making 20plus million a year for taking the substances?
there is a way to not use any of these substances and grow to a place beyond whatever trip or experience what one ingests will provide. you can get there yourself and not ingest anything.
the question is how many people are willing to go be still, see themselves and not put a time limit on how long that experience will happen naturally?
the answer is we live in a world of short cuts, but to get to that last one, there is no short cut, hoping over a gate, taking a hit or ingesting something. it simply is putting in the time, but not just going through the motions, rather pushing oneself into that space.
what I learned is no funky piece of technology, light, sound, smell – no substance or pill you take – no drink you put in you will ever get you past what is a seeming membrane to where I think we all want to go, wish to be…it really does exist.
but to get to the fullness of that place, something else pulls you through, I don’t think you can do it under your own human powers, by yourself.
I am not here to knock anyone for trying any new way or thing – but my wisdom comes from guinea pigging ourselves in the labs. It brought me to a place where if you really want to live in the reality of the moment as a pure human, you might have to go out in the desert to heal yourself first and then you can come back and help others.
what I see in the world today is a lot of people writing about things, others are ingesting things because they are mistaking a trip as some magic pill to cure their ills (for the short term moment) or simply medicating to numb that which they don’t want to face. all of them work fine in the short term – but they are simply not going to work for the long run.
despite at one time being a decently fast human for my size and weight – I have learned life is more a marathon. what I just learned in the last few weeks is you can still sprint and extend yourself into old age when you realize the treadmills simply don't really give you results.
not sure if any young person is reading this and going, “what a loon!” if you want answers beyond what today's flavor of hip and trendy is for change. send along an email. there is nothing purely good or bad in the things of life, just the results in how we can choose to use them in a world there the difference between great and exceptional is a very small – yet the results are noticeably large.