ever have a day when you wake up and it appears your heart and mind either ran away or went on vacation, leaving you in a sort of doldrums where you simply are in a blank gaze. you really have no thoughts, if you do try to think, it is as if you can’t – as any image in the mind seems to dissipate quickly like fog or smoke. when you try to go into your heart and focus there, you keep going deeper and deeper and yet it is like the well is empty. it is just that place that is uncommon for anyone that thinks all the time. the heart and mind both said, “we are taking a break…you are on your own.”
that's the type of morning I had today. I fought in prayer/meditation, I fought in church to pay attention, I fought through a brainstorm with ideas and thoughts coming into the mind, but as soon as they went in…poof! it was as if they all disappeared? in the past I would sit and ponder, “what is wrong?” but as I age, I also realize this is actually normal at times and what might be the best thing to do is simply work out tiny little parts of the day and realize that tomorrow is another day and this too will pass.
I guess when you really enjoy and have fun working on ideas and solutions to problems – it just seems odd to have a blank mind and a seemingly empty heart. it all is a fight and struggle to keep the focus on things.
when I think of the longest dry spell or slump with ideas we ever went through, it was in the mid 1990’s and we spent three weeks brainstorming toy ideas with little success, and then one morning the four of us were in the room and we had a moment like I guess happened with the toy story crew with the three-eyed Martians. something triggered the most amazing brainstorm session where an idea was thought, modified and created in a few hours…a complete line of characters, products, show, books…
…usually it does not happen like that or as fast as that. but I never forgot that day. we had one animator drawing up the character, the clay and play dough came out and another sculpted the characters, and we simply started making them come to life.
hopefully, today is simply a barometric low-pressure system that affected my mind and my heart. I swear weather has a big impact on emotions and feelings. it is why I so love the American west where the dryer air and majesty of nature during the day and the ability to see the milky way clearly with the naked eye on a clear evening has me get closer to the creator of all this. humans are pretty interesting characters, but when you think about it – we are pretty tiny in the cosmic sense.
I will go look at my notes for tips and tricks to alter and change the path of a creative meeting. if I find them I will post them. as for spiritual and heart, stuff…there are times you simply keep praying and getting yourself quiet. it is a struggle, but one that teaches you much about yourself and the reality that this is but temporary and shall too pass.
I attached an image of a beautiful airplane from yesterday. I have never seen one actually flying before, only hanging in museums. perhaps I was bummed at the air show yesterday in that they kept most of the planes in the hangar because of the weather and there simply wasn’t much they could do…so when this p-51 unexpectedly came out and taxied down the lane, I sat there and went, “wow, that is a beautiful plane.”
the reason I went to the show was to see how they constructed the older planes with rivets and such…sadly, I couldn’t get close to any of them. c’est lavie. maybe this is a sign to work on the rockets today. what a cool product they are. sorry, this ramble is about ??? but enjoy the photo of one beautiful plane.