“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?”
there are a few lines inside the entire Bible that seem to always resonate with me and have me look at organized religion and wonder if we simply don’t overcomplicate what god really is…pure love. perhaps as humans, we simply can’t get our minds, hearts and souls around just how powerful pure love is, no more than we forget that humans are a tiny speck on one planet inside a cosmos so huge, we seem to not be aware of it much of the time. instead, we all seek to be loved more and more in a romanticized version that what pure love probably is. the same can be said with, “do not worry…”
how many of worry about what can go wrong, how will we get from point a to b, pay our bills, what we will wear. I marvel at how long it takes some of the world to get up and prepare for a new day and walk out the door with make-up and hair, a seeming living selfie of sorts. one guy I know spends 1 ½ hours a day primping himself…I wonder, “why?” and it is not my desire to judge him, but as I think about it, that is less time than I spend in a gym with a full work out each day AND take time showering, shaving, and dressing. I am not sure who told us to spend all the time with an external image? how is it that society tends to judge people based on what they wear?
there was a test I did with nice hotels in various cities when I was into that corporate-custom-clothing-bright tie-itis in my life. were the clothes nice, yes, the really were, but why did I need them? to impress others or my own ego? when I got comfortable with dropping the bs of life, I found I didn’t need those clothes apart from appearing appropriate at certain functions. the biggest reality was walking into the various public shops dressed in less and watching the view of the doorman, matre de, or service people. then I would go back a few hours later dressed in a suit and tie and get my derriere kissed. I would ask, “do you remember me? I was in here two hours ago…”
it led to some interesting looks. and if you want a key for great service. it was the folks that did not discriminate or judge, they provided a level of service consistent to all. those were the places I would go visit. the same effect can be said about the latest restaurant or club. I wonder, “why do people stand in line to get into a place like that?” anymore if someone offers VIP service for anything – I won’t go visit. why? because my experience with the caste and class system seems to be at odds with what love really is about.
I could be very wrong, yet, if I am supposed to love everyone, even my enemy, a bum on the street, or a super wealthy titan of industry – love doesn’t discriminate or show favoritism in its perfect form – it just loves
this gets me to the worry part. right now I am looking at my life and going, “uhm..ahh…what is the next step?” as the decisions stretch a few continents, countries, projects and a lot of people scattered on the planet. 20 years ago, I would have forced a decision, today, after spending the path trying to go from the secular prodigal son to a wee bit of a spiritual guy trying to learn to love – well, you have to learn to trust, just like you give up loving in a romanticized version to something larger.
it sounds nuts for me to type this, but you really are trying to go beyond your “self” and work towards, “selfless.” to not change or control what is around you, but to be your best self, like a beacon of light, no matter what others are doing or saying. sometimes it doesn’t matter what you do, someone will not be happy with you. I have a man in the gym who for whatever reason I have no idea what I did, did not said or thought to make him so angry inside. I tried chatting, reason, apologizing to no avail…and then I realized I am just a trigger for something far deeper inside him. in the past, I might have said something about it, but now, I simply feel sad for him and pray for him, that he might be happy not presenting an image on the surface, but from deep in his heart.
perhaps that is where a bunch of our worry comes from? the wounds of other people and events in life? we also have systems we were taught and traditions of ways to do things. we like to have control of everything and know what will happen.
perhaps this is the biggest fallacy of life we can have? anyone’s life can change drastically in an instant, you pray it doesn’t happen, but who are we to know what tomorrow will bring? perhaps this is why in the developed world we might have more mental illness's in that we have a lot of stuff to insulate or insure ourselves against change from an external standpoint with money, insurance policies, and stuff. what do we have inside lately? are we really getting closer to pure love and loving each other? or are we heading more on a pathway like romantic love…what is In it for me?
the same is with worry. of which, I think it simply is an element of trust. god is pretty amazing in that it is a choice to love. perhaps that is the greatest and most amazing thing I found with love, and something that really seems to take organized religion and set a lot of it not in the spiritual realm, but that of legalism and rule box checking. with it, you seem to lose the more important element of religion itself – that being god and love.
it is easy to blame God or love for our woes. it is very easy to ask God, “why are your allowing this, that, or have this happen?” our human minds are pretty good for making tools, but we are a bit short sighted in thinking 70-80 years on a planet are a long time in a cosmos that spans billions of years.
pure love is unconditional. I have seen it in 4-5 humans on the planet in my entire life. the irony is they were all monks of various religions. to the world, they might look insane, yet it is a safe bet few turned off the television with the spiffy preachers needing new Gulfstream and walked out into the desert to look into the eyes of a person who prays all the time, most of their life.
the experience will simply have two seemingly blinding lasers or super bright lights beaming into your soul where all the not so good and imperfect things inside yourself are illuminated, and yet…there is no judgment, but rather another human is looking at you with love.
they say for someone to heal another, they first have to heal themselves. what I see in organized religion is a lot of people talking about how to be good and what one must do to grow in love – yet – the people probably are just as screwed up as you and I.
in conclusion, about don’t worry. I just watched some birds on power lines in the middle of a summer rainstorm. they were comical and seeming sent in my vision to reiterate the message of “don’t worry” as they each preened their feathers and took a bath, drink and got clean for the next time the sun comes out.
we have a choice in life to love and trust. I explain it like I used to love more in a way that it was holding the object in my hands. it is how much of the world loves…it has conditions and our desires and wants, yet, we seem blind to our own weaknesses and things we do that are not loving.
one day, you meet someone like the monks and realize they are loving with an open hand and giving you a choice to love back. it is very different than what I see in the secular world. I observe this love more in the 3rd world where there is a lack of some resource and you find people working together so all might have some and no one is left out. it is a bit like nature where I really don’t remember ever seeing one or two obese animals controlling all the food for a herd that is thin.
so when you open your hand to love. it probably sounds confusing to most of the planet. I think we all want and tend to want to be treated special, and perhaps the pimping out of the VIP tickets and shows feeds off of human pride and the love of self/status? when you open your hand to love…no longer is the burden on what another says, does, or does not do…but it is on you to love and expect nothing in return – to simply give.
then you get to learn to not worry what another human does in return. they can lie, cheat, distrust and want to control…or they can simply love back.
I think that is the ultimate decision and choice we all get to make with god and the creator of all this we can and can’t see. and yes, learning to trust god will send you on a life experience adventure that is richer and deeper than anything you could have imagined yourself.
perhaps I needed to hear the message of don’t worry this morning while I look at four things and wonder, “what is the path?” I know to sit and be calm and wait and not jump the gun for what I think should happen. it is like baking a cake. you can take it out early and it is not cooked, if you wait too long, it is tough and burned…if you wait for the right moment…it comes out delicious.
perhaps that is a lot like love…if you love and don’t worry…life will indeed work out perfectly.
have a good day…some days I want to take everything that was written and edit it. but that goes against the rules of this blog about whatever. now I can get some coffee. :o)