they say everyone has a price. do you have a price that you set for doing something? I used to have one, and in hindsight, I think of the seemingly large amount 20-30 years ago, and I laugh about it today, as you can pull back and look at the amount in scale and realize it was pretty cheap in the grand scheme of selling one’s soul. thankfully, no one ever offered or took me up on that price – it almost would seem like a guaranteed one-way ticket to hell for the prodigal son.
in a few hours, this year’s journey of lent and holy week will be over, of which, I wonder, “did the activities help change my inner imperfect person? am I closer to god? to my fellow man – be they friend or enemy? can I carry this work forward and make it a habit, or will I regress?” and then out of it all on Thursday, I heard one of the more interesting sermons from a priest about the history and value of 30 pieces of silver and the question to each person trying to follow the teachings of Jesus today – what would we all have done 2000 years ago? run? hide? fight? deny? betray?
perhaps that is why the sermon on Thursday, was a bit like getting hit in the head with a sledgehammer in the head and the heart. just words were spoken, yet, I understood all too well the message. what I did not know was the history of 30 pieces of silver, which is the value of the price of a slave in biblical times. what made the sermon lesson more real was the passing around of a Roman coin that was an actual piece of silver. when you put it all into context with Judas betraying Jesus, you realize it was a very small price he was paid for his action. cheap actually.
what events do we all cheapen and/or sell out for? I look at the modern world in the USA and wonder how many people are doing work that pays bills, but goes against who they are inside? how many have changed or been changed by the culture or social aspects of their station in life that they are unaware of themselves anymore and think even corrupt, greedy, lustful and envious actions are just part of the business or life? I guess I had to ask myself those questions 17 and 13 years ago to come to a place where I had to strip off all the bs of myself to come to a place where I no longer have a price.
I guess that is what happens when you get touched in a spiritual sense, and even more when you were off living in the world and bobbing, weaving, and punching up to get some of the stuff of the world. in hindsight it is rather foolish, but it is easy to lose yourself with the trappings of the world. it is like capitol hill is probably a swamp, yet, everyone is so entrenched in the same pile of muck and the accolades of power that everyone tends to not see what they paid or how little it took to sell themselves off for a price.
the political analogy is probably appropriate form the biblical to the current time. I wonder if politicians were bought and sold before they ever got into power like the appear to be today because it takes a lot of connections, money, and power to seemingly get elected today.
yet, do you have a price? I had one. today I realize it wasn’t all that much in the grand scheme of life. sure I could have had a really nice life – but at what cost?
maybe I did learn something in the past 15 years…maybe there is some change since I threw away the idea of what the world says is living, and somehow got beyond the talking and legalistic stuff of religion and pressed into the spiritual element that exists.
the irony is to the world, this journey probably looks foolish or goofy. but when I look back on my own path – what I used to be was pretty goofy. of course, hindsight is never incorrect. :o)
I doubt my words say what I am trying to convey – but that is what you get for these 10 minutes that are a few hours before Easter. now I go take a nap…as the long week of services is almost over.