the snow outside is falling heavily. it was preceded by snarly gusts of wind that chilled through the coat, jacket and all the way to the bone. it isn’t cold as in -25 F, but it sure feels cold. I have some meetings tonight and then hit the plane tomorrow to go lock myself into a space to work on making models and concepts until we set up the big shop for the larger prototypes. it should be an interesting few months.
I am happy from the cultural standpoint as I am getting a larger understanding of the German language and the Swiss culture. I don’t think it is familiarity I am getting, but rather, I am seeing more facets of the overall object called Swiss life. yesterday was fun as one of our recording guys who work in stereo will have to soon work in spatial arrays with object-based panning. I think he was confusing psychoacoustics with Ambisonics. each does something really cool and unique, but trying to talk about it is like discussing apples and oranges in how you have to move the data.
in some respects, it is a bit like having me learn how to pray and meditate in the pitch dark here at night. usually, there is a light or a candle, but here, it is so dark with the double curtains that I learned to get up at 3 am and just struggle to work through prayer. usually, you don’t have your eyes fully closed when meditating, so having your eyes open and seeing pitch blackness, as if you are blind, is a strange feeling. I forget how many days it took (if not weeks) to get to a place of peace as if there were lights on.
perhaps it is the testing and taking myself out to these odd extremes in audio, visual and olfactory work that have taught me the most about one of the products we will make that is really simply a big tool that can help or guide people into a state where they can come to grips and see themselves…be it good or not so great…and not freak out or hide. I tell people all the time, “you don’t really need a gym, nor to eat supplements, wear make-up or get cosmetic surgery, I am not sure you can do the journey internally alone with your own strength or psychotherapy. what I learned is if you have a guide (there aren’t many that have done the work themselves in our land of, “let me write a book and go on the speaker and self-help tour.”) you can simply go and sit somewhere on the planet in silence and your answers will come.
how long will it take? I have no idea, each person is different, and then the reality is that you have to pretty much keep working each day till you die to improve. while I like the idea of perfection and the target of it – odds are the sum of your life, good/bad/ugly will be perfect rather than one snapshot moment that we tend to like posting on social media as an illusion.
maybe I did grow somewhere a bit in that I want the guy you see on the street, at the café, in a boardroom, lab or gym…to be consistently the same person, not like a box of chocolates with dividers between the people. I used to live the secret life and while it is fun, in the long run, I don’t think it really does a lot to bring inner health and peace.
so that is my missive today. the snow is falling, Ideas are being finalized in concepts to make prototypes…both large and small…from plants to people…trying to give them space and tools to grow and change, while keeping the key element of “free will and/or choice.”
just another day to move three things forward…have a nice day.