I am not sure if it is my old athletic background, a myriad of coaches that instilled perseverance and getting up when you are knocked down, or simply the real-life experience that no matter how bad life can get, you simply keep trying to step forward and improve each day. I don’t see this mentality all that much in the world today. what I see is more is that we have created a life where “discomfort and pain” are things one run from, instead of going through. while going through these stages is never fun, what you learn from them is priceless. I still remember the moments in time when you broke through to a new level of either physical, mental or spiritual gain.
don’t get too excited, the gains usually come at a high price with time, effort, failures, wrong ways, mistakes, sweat and sometimes blood.
so here I am today, looking around all the areas of my life, and for the first time in my life, I wonder what is the point of trying to help people? while I know the reason why from a rational and logical standpoint, your emotions will try to get the better of you. perhaps that is why I got a good chuckle from an old friend asking about the costs and structures to build spaces for human healing last night. It was from the past that I gave up, as the journey to try to get people food and nutrition superseded all the rest.
today…I stare around the tools in the lab and wonder, “why keep helping others?”
the reality is something helped me. if I can pass along any help, or wisdom learned from all the mistakes and failures in the lab and save someone time and money – it is worth it.
the only time you wonder if anything is worth it is when others give up, don’t take a step, or don’t try.
that is when the sad reality is that you know you can never change another person. all you can do is lead them to the bowl of water.
maybe it was that playing American football, you were always in pain and never noticed it. then again, I say getting hit in the head so many times does wonder from keeping you from remembering yesterday’s pain.
odd times indeed. but don’t fret – it is just another day of change in the mental, physical, spiritual and emotional life of one human walking out his change on the planet. it is just frustrating that change does take so much time unless you quit.