I have heard from most all religions that there are many who look and seek, but there are few that can really teach or are walking in a purity of the spirit. instead, we think much more of ourselves as selfish humans, than the reality that we are but a speck of dust in the grand design of the cosmos. I think pride does more damage to humanity than any of the other passions in life.
this morning I was reading about the monks of Mt Athos and what they were talking about, is a level in the spiritual realm that far surpasses anything I have experienced, and probably ever will. but what it reminded me of, is just how when I think of pure love, how far from that ideal I really am. in many respects, it is terrifying to realize how small you are – yet at the same time, you realize how much you are loved.
I guess that is why my life looks completely goofy to the western world and even many people close to me. once you get a taste that there is something far bigger and more amazing than anything you can find on this planet – you go seek it and try to grow in a relationship with it. what I didn’t realize for many years is that there are forces in the spirit that don’t want you to grow or follow this path. I wish I could give a simple rule book for this path, but I think each of us walks our own unique path, of which we get the freedom to choose.
in the developed world, we live in a place where there are abundant choices and distractions that can keep our focus far from God. it leaves one open to make loads of mistakes and sin. the best definition I ever heard of sin is simply, “anything that keeps us from walking in communion with God.”
while man and religion have seemed to complicate a spiritual life with legalism and tradition and our own human bodies seem to be a sort of limiting factor to what is possible in a pure sense. when you get a taste of grace, or you look in the eyes of someone that has given all they have to walk with God, or you have experienced the horrific reality of mistakes you made that discernment teaches, then you will realize more and more just how off kilter humanity is from where it can be on this planet
but I think the most humbling and painful lesson you learn is how insignificant you are as a human and at the same time realize how much you are loved by that which created all. call it the terror and love at the same time tour?
until the day you get answers…all you can do is walk out the journey in faith, which is simply the belief in the unseen.