the past few days have had people telling me stories of how young “little” people’s minds work and think. all of the adults wondered, “why is it that we change so much when we grow up?” At the same time, I was bouncing between religious groups that had me scratch my head with the legalism and religious pride that was coming out of everyone’s mouths and minds. it has me ask, “why is it that we change so much with God when we grow up?”
they say you need a childlike heart to enter the kingdom of heaven. through years of experience, I have to say I do agree with that. as humans, we want to control and feel we know what we are doing. there is nothing wrong with that, yet, with the entity that created all the Cosmo’s…. that is pretty funny to think man is all that special with the time each of us spends here – literally a blink of the eye in the cosmic sense.
myself? yes, I have been guilty of forgetting that childlike wonderment with the creator of all. it saddens me that I have made myself busy working 7 days a week and I have not made as much if not taken as much time to hang out with God, go out into nature, watch more sunsets and my favorite is to look up at the night sky and visibly see the milky way with my naked eye.
I really don’t know what was going on the past few weeks in the spiritual sense. it felt like a gigantic battle where I was literally there by myself wondering where all the other people? it was not a good week in the spiritual battle field, yet, I did learn what needed to be learned, and I am happy for that.
I guess the childlike heart in me, really hasn’t died, but it does have some issues when the big boys and girls of life and the obligations override the priorities of that idea to love your neighbor – as you wish to be loved is more a question of do you fight with force or with love?
the irony is that was the sermon yesterday about spiritual growth. I have read from the various ascetics on how some feel you fight one way, the others think you accept the sin and flaws of humans and love.
I am not sure if any way is easier to learn, but I do think to fight with unconditional or selfless love tends to hurt more. the wounds have you realize how broken we all are, yet, how we tend to like to blame the other guy for everything.
but the stories from the kid’s activities and how they think. made me giggle. in a sense, perhaps that is what god does when we really do drop the religion and legalism and just open our hearts. he tries not to giggle, smiles, and then laughs while saying, “now you get my heart!”