there comes a time in every project or idea startup, where you are taking the idea and making it into a reality where you will have several times that you come to a place where it might seem like the dark night of the soul is in religion and spirituality. it is really a crappy place to be, where your mind questions everything – even your faith and belief in the unseen – aka God.
the good news is that if you recognize this process, you are ok walking through it and learn that there are many paths to go around it all and escape it – and really only one path that provides that cure or answers. old monastics say, “you don’t have to go to the actual desert. but you do have to go through it.” if you really want to grow.
the hardest part of this walk is that you are all alone, and you have to come to grips with looking at no one else, but yourself. the idea of taking off and letting go of the “make-up”, accolades and possession of your life, the image in your own mind of how “good” you might think you are. the first time you try to get real from deep within your heart and soul is a terrifying experience. I will be honest in that every time you go there, tends to have your fears trying to stop you from growing to a space beyond where you are to a place of love.
the last week was such a place for me. I have a lot of the pieces of a puzzle in place to take a picture far bigger than any one individual or group can make on their own in place to grow something quite special that really will bridge the world of profit, people and principles together. it is a beautiful idea that on earth one cannot have to be a greedy control freak to get anything profitable to humanity done.
what is the problem with this idea? instead of simply coding and automating all of the functions for artificial intelligence, robotics and automation…you use that technology to free up people to spend more time working on ideas that are not obligations, but priorities.
how will this end? I don’t really know. this will all flush out in the next few months and either blow up in a positive or negative way. but it will be a few people all either going through the desert together, or just one walking along beyond the known human sensory world of what is in one’s hand…and walking out what is an idea and vision with faith.
this might sound strange, but it is like how I met the one group. the long range is not some small little short-term thing – but rather a viable way to help many people on their path to have a less terrifying journey than the dark night of the soul – to change- take off the makeup and blinders and realize, “why did I need to carry around all that fear inside me – instead of simply opening my hands to love – even my enemies.”
at about 4 am this morning, for whatever reason, be it grace, pity, or to learn a lesson about people and following a spiritual path, a battle in my mind and my heart ended and the flip side of the dark night of the soul happened. I could say I felt like I was alone, but the truth was, I was never alone. I just had to focus on not what I wanted, but something bigger than my human self.
with that, you are given a great gift and you realize you are indeed on the right path…it is the one where the herd of humanity is not currently walking, as it is a choice to visit the desert of not. it is a choice to medicate with the stuff of the world or go take all the stuff off and go beyond a level you knew ever existed inside yourself, as well as something that is like the glue that holds us all together as a species even in our imperfect forms.
don’t mean to get preachy – but as you get older and more experienced, many times, like now, people will look at you, “why didn’t you bail on them long ago?”
that's when the only answer is, “there is something bigger than me, them and everything logical to man that can happen.”
to this, the idea of invention resilience and the skill to keep walking through the process, even when you are all alone is learned. you also realize you can’t do it by yourself in the long term and you humble yourself to ask for “help.”
the lesson was learned from a guy in Nashville, TN – a brilliant man who paid a huge price for the gift of his mind. when I asked, “where do you get your ideas from?” he smiled and looked to the night sky and said, “from him.”