there is a strange connotation one gets when mentioning something and having people react or believe almost the exact opposite of what you mean. take the word medicinal for example. with our lion's mane mushrooms, people assume we mean some drugs or something. meanwhile, I am just as surprised that people don't realize that OxyContin is legalized heroin. I get the same thing when I say, “if you want to heal, simply go out into the desert and sit for a while?”
“taking drugs out there is not good!” sorry, I actually had someone say this the other day. I am not sure if I had an incredulous look upon my face when I replied, “you can, but when I mention going out into the desert, there are no drugs involved, but you do have to fight to calm all the noise inside you to see inside yourself, of which, the first few times are terrifying as you have nowhere to hide.”
as I typed this, I now wonder how many people would understand such a comment. is it like the data I am looking at for “change” in people? I am just as shocked and surprised at how many people feel that people simply don’t want to change – at all.
it is like the last week where I go up in the woods and sit for a few hours each day and truth be told, I have a hard time getting out of the world of the east coast noise with media, communications, noise, and overall a seeming fear based stressful life many lead. maybe I know I only have a few hour window to try to calm that I find myself marveling at the amazing beauty of nature, the design of plants, trees, and the animals that are giving me lessons in life as I observe and watch the entire system of nature work – and then I think our man-made systems and think – “we have a way’s to go to get to this level”
going into the desert at first sucks. the first part is we are oblivious to how much we allow noise and obligations of life to cloud our priorities.
the second part is how hard or long it takes in the initial stage to sit and simply “be” with yourself.
another step is how scary it seems when you drop into seeing yourself and realize you aren’t all that amazing and special one is in the cosmic sense, yet, inside oneself and all of us – we have a vast capacity to change and make ourselves better in the heart and soul
in some respects I have no idea why religions are not teaching more of this. usually, it is simply someone that hasn’t gone on the experiential journey and fixing themselves telling everyone what they should do, and almost give a checklist of rules and regulations to check off to somehow change. “oh goodie! look, I did all the steps, I must be better!”
my experience hasn’t worked that way. I was always asking, “why?” to everything and getting too many answers that didn’t seem to have much weight behind them, like, “it has always been done that way” or ignorance and fear of looking imperfect covered up a simple answer of “I really don’t know.”
what you do find is that when you go into the desert, with no minimum time limit on self…you will drop into space where all the make-up, image enhancers, your own quirky beliefs will come off, as if melting and you are sitting there with yourself.
at that moment, you will understand what I trying to write about, and congratulations, that is the moment you get the choice to actually change.
such is the beauty of the deserts and the element of choice in the equation of life.
the irony in that the best thing we probably can do for ourselves is to be still within ourselves, see ourselves, all the good, bad, and ugly…and come to a place beyond ourselves where we realize just how small we are, yet, how something so amazing is inside all of us.
it is funny how we let our fears and obligations of life keep many of us too busy to even try to change.
the latter part is a daily battle. maybe that is the problem, there is no instant gratification or quick fix on this path. maybe that is why so few actually try to change?
maybe that is the misnomer of why so many people think all people do out in the desert is take drugs. the reality is you take and need none.