when you were young, sleep deprivation was ok to deal with, as you get older, your mind gets knocked out if you do the same thing and stay up for a few days, all to get something done for people that really have no clue what goes on behind the scenes. so, this morning, I go to church early and figured I could meditate away, except the front door was locked and I realized, “oh, they are having their retreat!” so, I went to the coffee shop to figure out the nearest church and in walks Poki – the lad that started some odd series of events with the biosphere inventors and his dream of putting up a settler’s community that he just closed on the land. so, there was in a sense, a church of a different kind.
people might laugh when you mention that the old way of life that you lived in the world changes when you start to give up yourself to follow a path of a different kind. it almost defies logic and the way most of us were taught to operate into a world, be self-sufficient, ask for no help – and yet, the spiritual message of many is to work in a community and help each other, both friend and enemy with a sense of community. this is a microcosmic and simplistic view, but the idea of love is simple. to actually walk it out, not so simple, as you have to deal with your stuff, and leave others to deal with their stuff and not judge them.
so, there was Poki answering my questions about his ideas and visions of what the place would be. all the work with the creation of aGrowVillage, AgrowBox and now the aGrowSpace were swirling as he talked. it isn’t like 15 years ago when it was an idea, but rather, 15 years of what no t or how to do something have led us to where we are today. one door closes, and another open. I just have to take some time and lock myself into a room and put all the parts in place for others to see. there is something someone told me in that a picture is worth 1,000 words and a model is worth a million.
the other part of it might be that I find everything fascinating and interesting except the status quo of life and hope all the various events and experiences will come together and sum up into a product that can dynamically live long after I am gone.
so, I digress. I pop up a google search for churches and find that there is a Greek church in town that I remember passing on the way to the Amtrak station in LAMY, NM. I found it, was on time, and have to admit, it was one of the fastest services I have been to in a while and/or I am just so used to father B taking his time and pouring his heart into every word and prayer. I think that is the difference between the someone raised inside one denomination of a religion and or someone changing and converting to another denomination or religion. one side takes it all for granted, the other might have a tendency to overcompensate on legalism and rules?
In one hour, we were done. I was looking around and wondering why father b was so long with a service, this was short and sweet, no fluff. I guess that is why I went to eat a fluffy omelet at the local café I happened to pass by and then was approached by missionaries and a spirited debate about legalism, religions, and everything in between happened in a town where I think there are a lot of people who want to think and believe they can figure life out all by themselves.
This was indeed an odd morning of playing hide and seek with God. maybe he is just testing me to see, “will you follow me despite all the obstacles that get stuck in your way?”
the answer is yes, as I am sitting in the north of Santa Fe, and I can only imagine what the night sky must look like here with minimal noise and light pollution of man.
perhaps that is how I simply realize there is so much more than what we can see with our naked senses in our human bodies.
what is ironic is that man is making more and more ways to put light up in the cities so that we have a hard time seeing any of it and take a moment in nature to breath and wonder why so much of life is chasing things that don’t really matter.
but that is simply one guy's simple thoughts from a café in New Mexico where the church was indeed very special and indeed unique this day.