in the next few days, a lot has to get done, and all I can do is give my best effort to complete it before I will unplug for a few weeks and take some time to put some salve on the various wounds from the time with this prototype, refocus and direct the path with what has been learned, and then refine it to where the next step should be.
there is another project idea that is confusing me, as I think man might simply be too far of himself in how he thinks with the ability for technologies and tools to change his inner heart. in some respects, it might be the difference between entertainment and scientific/military/medical specs. with the first, you have a wide berth of play to provide the illusion of something as believable. with the later, you don’t have that luxury – as you are looking for the most reliable or high-quality tolerances in something.
why does this ideology bother me a bit - perhaps it is having 25 years ago we were playing with the tools where I see people all jumping up and down with what might be the path for an altered reality that can lead to people thinking with artificial intelligence that a machine is a sort of god because they keep seeking the illusion or façade of deeper reality versus taking the steps to walk through and grow into a fuller reality? you can hook yourself up to all sorts of feedback devices, bombard yourself with “experiences” and a plethora of senses…. but all that will do is heighten your physical external world.
you can also go the path where people think and empathogen is a gateway to some higher consciousness. we seem to be great at taking things from various religions of the world and modernizing them to fit our current lifestyle without taking the time to study more the deeper meaning and history of what the substances meant to that culture. an analogy might be that in Asia, a martial arts process takes many years to work through the process of growth. in the united stated, you sign up, buy a belt and while you might know the techniques…we forget to teach the qi, or life force that comes with time and life itself.
this is what I see happening in the various ideas people are pitching with getting a bunch of folks together to stare at an orb, or sit in some full dome and go “wow, we had this experience. is it really much different than going to a movie? today you have the ability to take a crew anywhere on the planet and/or create a world in the computer and have a show to experience it. no need to climb a mountain, swim, run, walk…just put on your helmet and go for a ride. after you spent all the years working out how to do this…you realize it is cool, interesting, does provide some element of a deeper experience – but it never took me beyond my human senses to the place where for the general terms of this morning’s brain flatulence – you grew in a spiritual sense with something far larger than yourself.
maybe that is where religion has shortcomings in the world. most of the time you are being told what to be like, but there is a shortage of folks that can teach or guide you “how” to grow to that space. it is particularly difficult in a world that Is getting nosier, seemingly more inhumane with how we treat each other, and somehow, we feel we are a special being in a universe that is so vast and huge, that I am not sure how we lose sight of how small humans really are in the grand cosmos?
maybe it is the fear of death that motivates this pursuit to try to make oneself better or think one can trick time and you can live longer. what happened to the simple journey of life and death and walking out everything in between to the best of one’s internal abilities versus looking for some external element to fix or change someone?
this is the question, of which, I read the emails and ideas and dream of some really intelligent people, yet, the words don’t carry the substance or depth from what I learned with all the research. does it mean that I think the ideas won’t work? not really, it means that for all the time working on the various technologies and ideas, it comes across as a sort of prideful vanity of sorts where improving humans is filled with hip and trendy buzzwords and slick presentations and more events for people to spend more money to somehow differentiate themselves as different or special in the world of evolving. I am not sure if it is sad or comical to watch…or do I see myself 25 years ago where I honestly felt or thought I could help change the world.
to close, all I can think of is an old monk saying, “to heal others, the teacher must first heal himself.” in that respect, I have a long way to go before I ever teach anyone anything – but I also can see where I did grow a bit via learning and experience that the future technologies are needed to help humans cope – hopefully without ingesting pills or quick fix ideas, but rather a systemic change to make humanity itself better.
how does that happen? you deal with all you can actually change – yourself.
then again, if I re-read this post, I probably ask, “who is this dork that thinks he knows something?”