I don't know if you have ever experienced it, but there is a distinct working of the heart that can happen the more you delve into spirituality. usually it takes a long time praying and learning to be silent enough to drop the crud from your heart and soul that living in the world and your choice in life give you with how you behave, your actions, and the ways where in a general sense, you allow your fears to overshadow the genuine capability you have to love that is inside you. we all get to make the choice, yet, the world also is great at giving us a plethora of activities, entertainment and an increasing world of pain medications choices...to keep us so busy from ever having to actually look inside ourselves.
the spiritual path and the changing of one’s life and heart – really is a bit difficult and usually will involve pain in changing not what your exterior self is like as it appears to the rest of humanity, but your inner heart and the truth of what resides inside you, that can change, and then radiate outward into the world.
I guess this is why I have a lot of respects for the monastics and the monks from Mt. Athos. It was a few of them, a couple of Buddhist monks, and I think a Sufi that made the reality of what I read in the bible with Jesus and love…can exist in a heightened form on this earth. I guess all the reading and being preached to…really doesn’t do so much as one experience with an actual human that made a decision to strive for holiness and purity on while on this planet.
what does it do to be around such a person? well, it has been very rough few weeks here with trying to learn mercy. in hindsight, this idea is actually harder to work out than forgiveness of an enemy. I am not sure why it is so for me, but in time, god willing, I will work through it.
sorry for the digression. but what I am about to type might sound bizarre by the standards of the world, as I never experienced it until yesterday. but the holy people walk in a continual state of grace or walking in the spirit. call it a divine energy? call it being a light in the world with gods creative energy…I can’t describe it in a scientific way, other than to say it is something there. perhaps one day the scientists and religious folks may come to a place where we understand more of human consciousness and really see and/or understand beyond our current vision in dimensions and human limits.
you see me typing away? the reason is that I have no way to explain how I was standing next to another human, a monk, and he was filling my tired and hurting heart with grace/energy/power almost as if a battery charging me. I knew the monk was special, but for me to have this experience, I felt a bit guilty, like I was taking some power from him, yet, I really needed the grace of God to get through the next few weeks. even as I type here today, I think back to me sitting on the couch, the monk talking to all the people running up to him as if they were groupies at a rock concert, and I am just sitting there, getting a medicine for the heart transfusion of sorts.
it was truly amazing.
last week, I had to ask and find out a quote I hear a lot from my Catholic friends in Switzerland, “God helps those that help themselves.” and I keep thinking it was like, “cleanliness is next to godliness.” it doesn’t exist in the bible.
what does exist is “God helps those that can’t help themselves.” and in the past few weeks with this learn mercy and don’t annihilate another human…I needed help. and yeah, God is helping.
so, this story probably could be written better, but the reality is how do you explain the unexplainable. it is like trying to describe pure love, or in an earthly sense, what the Grand Canyon is like when you see it. no photo can really capture It, nor will any VR gizmo. you have to actually experience it in your human body.
the same thing is with spiritually, god and grace. you can sit there, study, read, memorize…. but it is the experiential learning that brings all of that to life.
yesterday I had another gift and surprise from the creator of all. the irony was I was listening to everyone talk about the various denominations and truths from each’s logical mind and my heart was getting filled with grace and love from another, through the same god everyone was debating about.
so, I am thankful to God, and the folks that really chase him with all their minds, hearts and souls…if only we all tried that, I can imagine the world would be quite a remarkable place, no?
I am thinking about making these gizmo things for stillness and my Silicon Valley friends…I am ok with it now, as it is a possible path or progression for someone to take a step toward that place where they can be still with themselves and perhaps get a different set of glasses to see how goofy a lot of what we call life and what we are chasing after really is.