A light bulb went off with the reason I have such frustration with academia and the traditional path of the maker space. It came out when I was describing having worked several thousand shows, how I can only count a handful that might be close to perfection. I am not talking about all the cues, lights, FOH acoustics, and load in and pack out going well. I am talking about when the performer transcends and has an out of body type experience, and the rest of the band joins them. Some call it lightning in a bottle. Like St. Elmo's fire, it is rare. I think I saw it when I was in the southern hemisphere and then once when the plane I was in got hit by lightning. The purple plasma looking energy glowing while you stare in disbelief.
The other times were Van Halen as a warm up band (they really were at one time) Stevie ray Vaughn in a small club in troy NY, Marcus Roberts and his trio having three moments in a show in Charlotte, Michael Crawford as the phantom of the opera, Clarence Gatemouth Brown doing a take on a fiddle, and the on night of the old player at preservation hall. What a short list for thousands of shows.
What limits most people from pushing farther than they ever knew, is simply choice, and usually fear. There also is the sheer amount of time and effort that it takes to get to that level. Sure, many are born with a god given talent, but those that truly excel practice and work on it each day. Honing it.
There is a step that happens in life between knowing and not knowing…it is the space between ignorance and stupidity. There is nothing wrong with ignorance, you simply didn’t know. Perhaps that is the greatest gift as an inventor…we don’t know any better, yet still try.
Stupidity is when you know better and do it again. Insanity is simply when you try the same thing and expect a different result.
But when I see the eyes of the PhD’s and the organizers of systems and beurocracies in the maker space – it only occurred to me about 10 minutes ago – they don’t know there is more. This is a job for them. This isn’t a passion.
When you get to work in a skunkworks space and environment…it is like magic as you have ideas, most fail, yet, you know and see the creation in a very short time of something new.
I just realized I was ignorant in thinking everyone understood how you do this. Maybe it is something I am supposed to put into that program and learn to teach – as the amount of time and money the universities and maker spaces are wasting, while equipment sits there, in a pristine condition, looking pretty – but not being used.
To me, that is a waste; as usually in that step that hold people back – is his or her own fears.
But we go on, reading books and writing about what some idea looks like, yet, few ever experience that level or moment.
Once you have, you are forever changed for the better. The problem is you live in a world that wants to live a different way. It is not any better or worse, but a choice.
That is the good and sad part about choices. Sometimes you have to leave behind that which is ok not moving forward, as they don’t understand or haven’t experience it. Sometimes you get left behind, as you know others need to try and grow and move forward, you cheer for them and root for them from a far distance, usually to be forgotten.
The only constant with both is you have to try to always love. But to experience the creator’s love for you, it changes what you knew love was about from the world’s model.
But we are a bit flawed as humans and that perfect love that goes beyond our human limits in any human – is indeed rare. But when you know it is there, you get up each morning, try, and grow more each day.
The growth part, I am not going to lie, when you are going through the processes, it really can suck.
Maybe that is why people try to resist change?