How are meditation, prayer, and fitness selfish?
There are many days I feel like a three-eyed alien living here in Switzerland. I realize there is a huge cultural difference between the American used to living in a 24/7 world that is always working to create and a more static way of living that is Swiss. There is an irony in the current Swiss life is very much like the life I grew up with inside the United States as a kid. A part of me really wonders where live will go in the future. will it learn from the USA's mistakes? or will the borders fall and systemic offshoring begins?
I guess we will have advanced border bots by then and the idea of anyone trying to get into another country without the right documents will be a bit different than we see today.
My life has had a few amazing meltdown periods in it. Life is like that if you try, live, and take chances versus playing it the normal safe. While society and even I used to think we had to follow a sort of Maslow’s pyramid to self actualization, it was in 2005 that I turned the pyramid over and put faith in god at the base and said, “ok, you come first…I trust that all the rest will follow.”
I have to say, this moment was predicated upon meeting Father P. He is a monk that came from Mount Athos and has spent his life praying. When he looked into my eyes, I realized that all that stuff you hear about that is preached in church or you read in the bible – really can exist inside a human being. There is no fluff, no image, no carefully scripted video screen service, or procession. The man transcended what was written and was walking with this energy inside him.
From that day, I did what he told me to do. It wasn’t really anything fun or earth shattering, it was simple discipline and learning to focus my heart. The problem is that I have a mind that really likes to think up lots of ideas, and that is not always a good thing. But that is where father p’s guidance comes in. You need a guide to go on this journey. If you don’t have one, you will simply delude yourself.
But lets get back to the insanity of tipping Maslow’s pyramid over and balancing it on the tip and simply putting god and the idea of self actualization first – and not worrying about all the other stuff. Yes, imagine that if you can.
You probably think, “this is insane! I have all the obligations and priorities of the world I MUST do! And THEN I can get that few seconds of time to worry about self-actualization. I am just too busy!”
I used to think the same way. That idea of putting god first and trusting him seems insane. Faith, aka- belief in the unknown while living in a world where we tend to only deal in what is known, seen, and being held in our hands.
Today? I guess it is a miracle of sorts, post 9-11 that my life has changed to a path where I spend the time each day thing to make myself better. To take all the weaknesses that I would never acknowledge inside myself, and work on them. Pride tends to blind you into not seeing that you are far from perfect.
The big key father P gave me. Discipline. Learning to discipline...the world says, "but that is selfish!"
So as I learned to pray, meditate and exercise a few moments each day. Much like I brainstormed each day – I realized I had more energy, patience, and time to do more.
I don’t get how our modern world thinks this can be selfish. But if I don’t take some time to maintain and change, tweak, modify and work on myself – how can I expect to be something more than a battery that runs down and can’t recharge when living in the demands that the world says, “this is normal!”
Not sure what I blabbed on about…but while I really do have interest in so many varied ideas and disciplines – I know I can’t learn about them all like I would wish. But I try.
Life is more than sitting there watching and commenting about what everyone else is doing. I still don’t have the thick skin that doesn’t care or hear the criticisms and comments of others, but I do know that potential exists – I met a guy that actually was walking that type of patience and love.
Oh don’t get too excited, on the holy or righteous scale I still resemble Swiss cheese with LOTs of holes in it. What I have trouble with is the patience to learn that deep internal change doesn’t just happen, it is a slow process that you have to do each day, and keep working on. I don’t think you ever arrive and can say, “I am here! I am done!” It just doesn’t work that way and there is not technology or drug that can bring change at the root level.
The process must really seem odd in a world more bent on instant gratification and building your “self “an “image.”
You don’t need anything but to be your true self.
That is my post entertainment brainstorm ramble. Have a great day.