“The person who says it can not be done should not interrupt the person who is doing it. “– Chinese proverb
When you think of someone that invents or creates, you will hear a myriad of definitions about them. The range is from a nerd that never leaves his cocoon, a mad scientist type that is trying things out, someone that is “stupid” as they keep going on an idea long after most people have given up (which oddly is 80+% of the people quit after one failure), a mentally unstable type that just doesn’t fit too well into the 9-5 norm, as their brain is usually a few years too far ahead, or perhaps someone that people deem selfish with their time, yet, they don’t need 24/7 coddling.
I could go on and on about the various things I have been called, told, criticized and everything else with my time on the planet. I don’t want to say you get used to it, for I don’t have a ducks back, where I can simply allow everything to roll off my back, nor have I come anywhere near where I want to go with spiritual enlightenment and the ability to simply allow whatever happens around me in life, not to affect me. I sit and chuckle, I would be happy for a match of spiritual enlightenment right now.
But believe me, when you invest so much time, effort and ideas into dreams and things, you know full well that most will fail. But it doesn’t make failing any easier on your heart and soul
We are pulling the plug on the home/lab in Colorado. I have a few years of sketches, diagrams, and layouts to create one of the cooler and more beautiful off the grid spaces on the planet. Don’t feel bad, for the entire Agrowbox 2 and Augmanity actually were the result from me having to overcome the problems on the site in Colorado and actually build the idea.
Yes, I can go anywhere on the planet, off the grid – and create a really amazing way and quality of life blending technology with old school living, and do it in a small space.
But it doesn’t take the sting away of all the sweat, huffing, lugging, carrying, thinking, drawing, sketching and figuring out the ideal situation in Colorado. One day when the sting of “this most likely is not going to happen” wears off, I will post the page and design of what the vision was for the land and how to use it. My only prayer is someone comes along that truly wants to enjoy a piece of heaven on earth and take care of the land.
I have had a few great failures in life; I remember them more than the success, as the success was more materialistic, fleeting. I was in a store today, which is something like me watching TV. I just don’t get how and why we spend so much on fashion, that it really is the second most wasteful industry on the planet. Yet, there I was, observing all the people putting on a layer of clothing to find a certain look for an occasion.
I used to be Mr. logo, as I would wear all the free swag I got. Then it was when I went to burningman the first time, they had the no sponsor, no corporate vibe (this was years ago, before the mass exodus of humanity from silicon valley it is today)
The “no logo” idea is something I carried forward in life. I really don’t wear anything with a logo. If Nike, adidas, Hilfiger, or any other company wants me to wear their logo, they can give me the clothes for free. Why do I want to pay for a logo when I understand the actual costs and markups for people to “feel” something?
Here I go digressing again. I just need some time to simply let go of what was a cool idea. The one thing do know, is everything happens for a reason, but I really thought I had found the space to live and do a whole lot of good for people on the planet with the lab for Augmanity and technology for “people, places and spaces” and while the umbrella is Agrowvillage, the Agrowbox 2 is the starting point for a viable and real solution for frontier and/or urban living.
But the stomach acid in my stomach, doesn’t feel very good. The other odd thing is when something fails, the armchair critics come out, say things that probably mean well – but come across as empathetic as trying to tell a person diagnosed with inoperable cancer how they need to live the rest of their days.
Yes, failures suck, but the consolation is out of this failure for me, maybe a great deal of good will come forth for others on the planet.
If you know someone that wants to live in a piece of heaven, off the grid (with current lifestyle conveniences) and only 15 minutes from a city – let me know.
Time to pray that prayer for disappointment. Funny, it is really a rare prayer I say – yet, today, it says the words better than I can.
There is great wisdom in the Chinese proverb at the start – most people don’t know when to shut their mouths, myself included. In a world filled with noise – what i will miss most about Colorado is the silence and the rhythm of nature – and living in it.
Thank you for allowing me to vent. It is a process. It is not fun one to walk out when a looks like a dream isn’t going to happen, but I have enough experience that something better will come out of all the effort and work. The best thing to do is hand it over to the big guy – he is a lot wiser than I.