Truth versus feelings
The more I try to just look at myself and work on improving, it appears the more one gets blasted from people outside of yourself. While it is much easier to find, look, and critique the flaws of another. To rationalize how they wronged or hurt you and justify it by using an eye for an eye mentality. Does it really help you grow?
One of the bigger mysteries, and it appears one that each day I look at and ask, “Am I making any progress?” Is that of looking only inside oneself and asking, “ok, what can we improve today? No matter what another does to you?”
Yes, it is that world where truth and feelings collide. Perhaps it is the battle of good and evil inside your heart and mind? Today I am really not sure what it is.
In one of my sales training classes years ago, the trainer asked us to think about the first time we tried something new, or events in our life where we worried or were really scared about something happening that was not pleasant.
Then he asked, “How many of these came true? 1 out of 100? 1 out of 1,000?”
Perhaps that is why I am fascinated with Augmanity and the technologies we want to roll out. We can study these elements in real time today. Not because we are super geniuses, but rather because technology is coming of age to allow a plethora of new glass prescriptions to be made for humanity to see more. Ideally at a higher resolution, further or closer.
The stuff inside man has been the same since the beginning of time. We just are making tools to see things better.
So what does this had to do with truth and feelings? People can read this silly blog and comment that “on this day, you wrote this sentence, and it must be the way you think!”
I have to giggle a bit, as I am thinking about my old girlfriend who loved to hack her ex husband and boyfriends life and send friends and family messages that were one portion of a sentence.
“Did you write that?”
“Yes, I did. Do you want to read the entire context of how it was written? the intent, context and full reality?"
"oh, that means something completely different."
In a sense that is the frustration today. If someone feels a certain way, and believes it as truth. It will take an act of god to change the perception of how a person believes. I am not sure if it is part of the human condition, or it is how many of us learn and remember. “Oh I tried that once…. it didn’t work.”
Maybe I realized why I did ok with sales. I was too stupid to stop at the first failure. I was told that usually it took 5 failures and 80% of the gains would happen.
As I walked to this library, I go past these really nice shops where custom fabrics and sewing is done. It is really beautiful, sort of like after church on Sunday in Paris when I would have to walk by the couture fashion areas. I would stand and marvel at the pieces in the windows at the quality of the craftsmanship. I figured each dress was a bit of “if you have to ask the price, you can’t afford it.” But it doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate the quality levels.
A few weeks ago, I blabbered about a sketch bag idea that has come into focus as I try to come up with a seamless way to filter ideas with my friends lab design. While he asked for a simple list of equipment, I can see a major bottleneck in speed with students and the current way of working/thinking in academia. So I found a really cool bag on a mannequin walking here and stopped and gawked at it, took some cell phone images, etc. It was about the size I was thinking. Not big, not small, but more than ample to always have on one’s body.
I will go into some of these shops on the way back, or I will go and talk to some capuchin monks about the struggle between truth and feelings, and how trying to move forward inside.
To the world on the outside, few take the time to look inside. Perhaps that is the frustrating part of life these days. I am really looking inside; trying…yet the outside also doesn’t want me to change either.
Life is a unique journey to live. I just never was one to think “watching” life was much fun.
Perhaps that is why I do enjoy this daily blabbering of thoughts and ideas. While I really would love to learn to write well, these ramblings that few find, really are interesting in that someone can pretty much find any phrase to say I am pro or con against any idea or issue in the world
I can only say, “Please let me read what I wrote that day, I don’t remember. Then I can give you the context of what I was feeling that day. Does it mean that is what I believe or feel is true? Probably not.”
That is the beauty of choice in life. I believe in love…. how I feel many days is that the idea of love really can be a painful journey filled with thorns. On those days you have to keep remembering the fragrance of the flower…. it’s beauty.
The truth is that love, does have thorns, it also has far more beauty than anything.
Now back to thinking about that way to make data transition and mining it work. nothing like guinea pigging your self.