Does anyone else get a sensation that they feel out of place on this planet? You never really quite fit in? You were the round peg that the world kept trying to stick inside the square hole? Is it because you simply look at the world differently? Were running to hide from something inside that seemed to make you want to be a rebel? A bit of both?
I used to put more credence in trying to understand personality temperament sorters, like the Meyers-Briggs test. There are a myriad of other out there that attempt to do the same thing in bringing a cluster of parameters to help us understand the basic ways differing mindsets approach people and problems, ideally to help us understand and work together in peace.
My temperament is ENTP, and ironically, it is pretty strange how my mind operates within the area of strengths and weaknesses of the generalized parameters.
One of the problems with ENTP’s is that we are always off looking and seeing new possibilities. The great part of this mindset is that the term “bored” or “boredom” simply does not exist inside the ENTP dictionary.
The second part is that the ENTP will look and question how things are done and try to find another way, usually more rube Goldberg’s in design until someone with extreme common sense walks buy and asks, “why didn’t you put a gizmo here?”
The last portion is remembering all the time and years spent working in the normal world with 9-5 jobs to save to go build a lab so i could work on things that interested me. many days i wondered, "is this all there is to life with the work, sleep, repeat process of the same place, same time, and repeat the same work?" i am happy to report it was an means to an end.
The aforementioned path lead to a world where I literally changed how I used my time. I kept hearing everyone saying, "i have no time" that i went and studied it and found out how to differentiate between a priority and an obligation. In trying to understand others, I saw how each of us places very different priorities on what is important to us.
Over time, I really don’t place much value on personal stuff or having a lot to carry around. This seems abnormal in the modern world where one is told to get married, buy a house, get a promotion, buy a bigger house, fill that house with more stuff, and repeat until you drop dead. The great comedic mind of George Carliin says it better than I can, click on the image when you are done reading this post.
The problem with operating out of this mindset is that much of the world really does think differently with what is normal or important. Having the creature comforts and building a world around oneself where safety and little change happens is considered the optimal life. We might say to have a “good life.” It is really a nice ideal; particularly with how advertising and marketing reinforce this message with a few thousand impressions on your mind each day that you are due a pain free life. Just look, dress, or wear a certain product and it will be a good life!
When we are younger, you tend to go after experiences in life. The good news is your body can still do stupid things and recover quickly to gain the thrill of adrenaline rush or see some jaw dropping place on the planet. Basically to do and have “more” with what is available to the human senses and the carnal state.
As you get older, something happens that you realize there is a lot more out there that is a great deal bigger than the “self” that the marketing and advertisers say is important. You are seeking truth and honesty in a world that has a lot of illusion. The truth is that you yourself might have allowed the lie of illusion to become who you allow others to see.
“If it looks right, it must be right” is a great southern term. The meaning is that no matter what is happening behind the closed door, when you go out in public, make sure you look your best so everyone will think all is right and well.
One day, if you really are daring, you will look at your own life and be still enough to see it. When you do, you will see all the junk and nonsense you were doing to fit in or be part of whatever group, organization, society, family, etc.
You will look at how you spend your time
Usually you will change, albiet, for a short time. Most only last a few days until the habits of old come knocking on the door called "instant gratification." A few will continue going against the grain, almost seeming to swim against the stream.
When you see the gerbil cage treadmill in life after running on it, and are lucky enough to sense, “something isn’t right with this pretty image." get off for a bit. unplug. look around and observe what you used to see.
if you do that, then this post will make sense. If not, this post will just seem “a bit odd, a bit different...like trying to stick a square peg in a round hole."